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I'm 41, single, never married, no kids.I have been dealing with anxiety & severe depression since I was 15.I was raised a Jehovahs Witness, of which I left at age 18. I consider myself a Christian, though I am with no organized religion. I have had several long term relationships. One of which, truly was love on both parts, which I know I should be thankful for knowing what it feels like. We would have married, except for the fact that, It became clear to me that my depression was too much for my potential fiancee to be able to see a future with me (& later on he admitted he also had battled with depression long before he met me.)We are still friends, though he lives across the US from each other.He is still single. That was when I was 28. At 30 I developed endimetriosis, & a few years later, ebstein barr virus/chronic fatigue syndrome, & two bulging discs in my spine. I have always been a fighter, a survivor, & had a gift for blending in, & appearing to be quite normal. However, the physical ilnesses, which now also include fibromyalgia, & several other physical Illnesses, are what have caused me to gain 70 pounds in the last 8 years. Honestly, of all the challenges I deal with, the only one that has ruined my dating life is my weight gain. The change in the way men treat me in general is really mind boggling.I admit, I realize now, I used to rely on looks quite a bit in the dating world, but who hasn't. Men are very visual creatures, I just hadn't planned on getting sick..... I've had many dreams & aspirations in my life, but the greatest of al, what my soul craves for, is to meet a man who is my best friend, my companion in travel, my confidant, etc... for life. I just turned 41, & though I spend most days seeing many doctors. All very good, doing their best at keeping my health stabilized, & still testing me, finding out what is wrong with my thyroid, & several other glands, I have a new, very real sadness. I am at an age where the chances are slim, that by the time I have my health under control, & am able to lose the weight.It's just not going to happen for me, & I'm going to spend my life alone. I truly hope I am wrong. My last boyfriend, of about 5 years ago, whas diagnosed with Acute Myloid Leukemia, a very rare form of cancer of the blood.Though we are not together, I spent The first 2years of his diagnoses, taking care of him, 24/7. It was the hardest thing I've ever done, but the act I am most proud of. I am happy to say he is still with us. He is ill more often than not, but he has a place to live & is able to care for himself at the moment, which makes me feel happy for him, & didn't expect how good it made me feel about myself. I highly recommend it! =)
I'm 41, single, never married, no kids.I have been dealing with anxiety & severe depression since I was 15.I was raised a Jehovahs Witness, of which I left at age 18. I consider myself a Christian, though I am with no organized religion. I have had several long term relationships. One of which, truly was love on both parts, which I know I should be thankful for knowing what it feels like. We would have married, except for the fact that, It became clear to me that my depression was too much for my
I am a very artistic person all around.Music, esp.classic rock, Movies, esp Classic, comedy, romantic...anything worth watching. I adore my nieces.I love to travel.My dream is to travel the United States, Europe, & everywhere inbetween. I love the beach, water, swimming.Spending time with friends, making new ones.Museums, history, historical locations.The library, bookstores, reading.I used to be very much into fashion, I still have a bit of it in my blood.I was a fashion show model from age 12 to 20.I lived for it, dreamed of travelling the world modeling, at 5'7, in those days, once I was old enough for womens clothes, I was too short, the reality crushed me, but it forced me to begin focusing on what I had to offer on the inside, & I have no regrets. I love sunsets, animals(esp.cats) I spent many years rescuing cats, volunteering for animal shelters, & on my own. After my last 2 rescues, I am retired.Honestly, I'd rather spend my healthy days with my nieces (who are 5&7), than cats!I have a large family on my Sicilian side, though I rarely see them these days, I am very family oriented. I love being surrounded by family.I miss the picnics, get togethers for no reason, doing things together, I love being in a family atmosphere!
I am a very artistic person all around.Music, esp.classic rock, Movies, esp Classic, comedy, romantic...anything
HI,DeborahGL,HOW are you doing and coping over there??Do you have a good understanding Dr,meds,help,etc..... There is new informaation about the cfs test and cause thats really interesting.please have a lovely day,cfs-fibro-Ed
Hi girl just want to say welcome to the family. We have a really great group here. So if you ever want to chat, vent, have any questions or if your in need of a hug just look me up fibonae
Hey, welcome to the singers group!
HI DEBORAH, WELCOME TO THE FRIENDSHIP GROUP, WE HPE YOU ENJOY ALL THE WONDERFUL PEOPLE THERE. BIG HUGS XOXOXO
Welcome to our group. May DS provide you the support you need
2 bulging discs in my spine
9 years of endimetriosis
My best friend has Acute Myloid Leukemia.I took care of him alone for 2 years,now occasionally. The hardest part is doing it alone.
My dad leaving suddenly when I was 18,then my mom moving 2 hours away with my younger brother & sister.These actions are still causing me & the fragments of our family great pain
I became seriously ill 3 years ago at age 39.I had to move in with my father who is verbally abusive on a daily basis. I am not yet able to move out,however it is emotionally so painful,I can't verbalize what it is doing to me.
I've never gotten over the loss of my Grandma.She was the only emotionally stable adult compared to my parents&Day or night.I could show up at her place without a call.She loved me with all her heart&I felt the same way about her.I was 19 when she passed away,&at 41 I have never known anyone I could depend on like my grandmother.It sounds very immature&selfish,but I miss both my grandma&the precious pure love she had for me.Im also here because I fall to pieces each time a close loved one dies.
I gained 70 pounds due to 8 years of physical illnesses & almost 2 years of being stuck in bed. I also have 2 bulging discs in my spine.I have the OK from the docs to swim & walk,however my latest bloodwork will tell me about my thyroid&other glands.I HAVE to lose this weight.It will change my life.I hope to make friends&share support.
I have battled acne since age 15,& still am at age 41.I have learned a lot,but still have much to learn.Acne is a terrible thing to have in this visual world &has been the most emotionally scarring experience of my journey on this planet.I hope to find support,make friends,&help anyone I can with my experiences.
I was diagnosed years ago,I've had so many traumas since I was a child,I wouldn't know where to begin
I've had OCD since I was 15.I had the symptoms at the lowest level until I found out my close 32 year old cousin,who has had kidney failure for 15 years is now facing a heart that doesn't have much time left.Most of my OCD demons have come back with a vengance.So,here I am.
I have a strange anxiety,where,if someone is with me,I can leave the apt.If I am alone,I have a terrible time fighting this invisible "gravity" that keeps me from leaving.Once I'm out,then I don't want to go home,because I enjoy being out so much!What is this?I don't even understand it!
My parents & relatives
26 years of battling depression
My father has been an alcoholic for over 30 years.My mom has been addicted to gambling for 10 years.I don't know who these people are anymore.Worse of all,I'm currently ill&I'm stuck at my dads apt for about 3 more months.