Pain is a hard thing to lose
August 15, 2009 9:55am
I feel like I can't do this anymore. I am so tired of waking up in the morning, feeling like I can't breathe. I have this ache …
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About Me
kerc
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About Me
I am a 20 year old full time student and part time worker. I enjoy being with friends and family as well as literature, music (though I have no musical inclinations), and the more simple aspects of life.
I am a 20 year old full time student and part time worker. I enjoy being with friends and family as well as literature, music (though I have no musical inclinations), and the more simple aspects of life.
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Perked up
August 8, 2009 7:58pm
Right now, I feel good. Despite everything, I feel like a somewhat normal person right now. I have these moods on the rare occassion so …
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A bad night turns into a bad morning
August 8, 2009 8:42am
My mom and I are now speaking again, even if it is only about the stuff she wants to hear. It's tough having to walk on egg shells …
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Just another day
August 7, 2009 10:24pm
So today is just another day in the crazy life that is mine. I worked all day and then raced straight over to the hospital to visit with …
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thank you! for the hug i needed it.
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I believe it will get better for you, here, have some hope!
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High Five
thank you again. today was rough. I have been spending Tuesday & Thursday mornings at my daughter's daycare. Sometimes the things she says make me want to cry so hard. She keeps asking me if I am having fun at my sister's house. He has convinced my child that I abandoned her & went off to have fun without her. also there was a book titled "Mommy's coming home" I asked her if she wanted me to read it to her & she said you arent ever coming home. She has forgotten that I took her with me & he forced her away from me. Now he is trying to make her think I abandoned her. I am angry right now & truly at this moment hope he roasts in hell!
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I’m With You
thank you so much. I have not cried today at all. I found a townhouse & will be moving in next week. I am excited but a little scared about spending so much time alone.
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Close Breakups & Divorce
A month and a half ago, my boyfriend of four and a half years broke up with me. At the time of the break up, we had been living together for three months and we had been engaged for a year. Our wedding date was set for next fall and plans were already under way for the ceremony. We had hit a bit of a rough patch recently but it was nothing out of the ordinary. He kept telling me everything was going to be okay and that he loved me. Two days after that conversation he told me he wanted to break up, that he wasn't happy and that he didn't want to settle down. He also said he no longer felt the same way about me but that it was nothing I did. Two weeks after we broke up, he moved in with a woman from his work. She is recently divorced and has a son. She is also older and has a reputation for sleeping around with men until she can no longer use them anymore. He doesn't want to see me, doesn't want to talk to me, and is acting like I never meant anything to him. Basically I am heartbroken and devastated, I'm trying to cope and move on but I feel so down all the time and nothing is lifting me back up. In the meantime, my sister was diagnosed with leukemia (AML) two days after the break up. She has been in the hospital ever since and has undergone two rounds of chemo. Her leukemia is in remission right now but it has a very high possibility of coming back. Patients with AML only have a 33% survival rate. She is only sixteen years old. My family is devastated and is falling apart. I feel so guilty for feeling the way I do when she's going through so much but I can't make my own hurt go away. I need someone to talk to, someone to give support and I'm having a hard time finding that in the people around me.
Close Acute Myelogenous Leukemia (AML)
My sister was diagnosed with AML at the end of June.
