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MollyZ 
10:51pm November 19
Writing is all that helps sometimes that and tears, I wonder if they will ever stop falling. I have finally decided to let them flow and not hold back,they are helping me to heal. I do need to learn to distance myself from posionous people and lately they are all around. I've made many mistakes in love,but since he has been gone my lonliess has caused total stupidity. I've decided I'm not going to date for at least 6 months. I moved to fast and it has added hurt and confusion to the pain and grief ,I was feeling from losing him. How stupid must I be ?If it never stops hurting will I survive? tonight I'm not sure. Tommorrow is a new day, I'm hoping that I will feel better. I never thought I would miss him so much, and I never thought there would be a hole in my heart that no one else could fill. The pain is so unbearable at times ,but I'm trying to move on,trying to live, trying to smile but most of the time I don't feel like it.I'm trying to be productive,I'm trying to get used to life without him, but at times it doesn't feel like living, just existing with no purpose. The worse is some days I don't care what happens to me and that can't be good.Please pray for me
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Dear Molly, Life sucks sometimes and grief suck the worst I have ever felt. The pain is like none other - it is excruciating - every part of you misses your loved one. I have never known it before. You have to cry much, sob heaps and at times cry like a baby. I am much older then you and have had lots of life, but nothing preares you for this. I knew it was coming and it did not help at all afterwards. i will pray for you as I believe in God and He has helpe a lot. I have read books and done stauff which has helped me a lot. You can do it - take it one day at a time and ask God for help and He will. Love John
JPFlynn
Of course you will be add to my "red light" prayer list so when I am stopped at red lights during the day you and others will be lifted up.( Better then fuming over the delay). Did you know that God cares enough about you that he collects all the tears you cry in a bottle. Psalm 56 verse 8 You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in your bottle. Are they not in your record? 9 Then my enemies will retreat in the day when I call. This I know, that God is for me. 10 In God, whose word I praise, in the Lord, whose word I praise, 11 in God I trust; I am not afraid. What can a mere mortal do to me? That is how much he loves us. And I know you probably do not feel blessed right now but according to his word you are because in Matthew 5:4 it states "Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted. I hope and pray you will hold fast to these truths as I have done in my times of mourning and grief as I am the last of my biological family to be alive. Hope this is helpful to you as it has been to others.
santaruss