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About Me
Spinnella
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About Me
I am 32 and have been through a lot in life. I try to look at all the things we go through (good or bad) as stepping stones and ways to make us stronger and able to understand/accept more. I am happily married and do hair for a living. I enjoy creating things artistically, and love to take pictures. Art is a form of serenity for me. I am so happy to have joined this site because I believe in the power of positive mind. I like to share my positive thoughts with others that are having a hard time doing so for themselves, and am thankful to have the opportunity to allow others to be strong for me when I need it as well. I deal with depression and anxiety on and off, and also suffer from PTSD, which at times isnt all that bad, but others - affects me in HUGE ways. I just lost my father - he was my life - so I am having a horrible time living with that void. I am trying to learn how to live life again... I have chronic back pain but am working on healing it... I am very open minded and am always open to suggestions and opinions. At the same time, sometimes I become isolated and internalize things. Just wandering around....like all of us...
I am 32 and have been through a lot in life. I try to look at all the things we go through (good or bad) as stepping stones and ways to make us stronger and able to understand/accept more. I am happily married and do hair for a living. I enjoy creating things artistically, and love to take pictures. Art is a form of serenity for me. I am so happy to have joined this site because I believe in the power of positive mind. I like to share my positive thoughts with others that are having a hard time doing
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Interests
Nature, animals, books, music, art, beaches, walks, work-outs, healthy living, writing, photography, cooking, boating, doing hair, selling on eBay, handmade gifts, and most of all, just plain happiness and calm. I love the color yellow and I am very active and interested in preserving the planet and supporting causes for endangered animal species - especially polar bears and sea turtles. Butterflies and hummingbirds are bliss for my eyes, and for whatever reason, I believe that they reflect the souls of loved ones we have lost. Their rare and blessed presence are in a magical way a sign to show us that Heaven really exists, and that our loved ones who have passed on can still stop in to say hello and brighten our days. There is a ton more I can list here, but shouldn't we leave something for the imagination? Looking forward to meeting more friends on DS! I have yet to come across a person on this site whom I dont enjoy talking with!
Nature, animals, books, music, art, beaches, walks, work-outs, healthy living, writing, photography,
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Little Love
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what if there's a 600 pound gorilla in the bed huh?..lol
sex is just sex..
poker is just a game..
beer is just a beverage..
football is just a sport..
a truck is just a vehicle..
uhmmmmmmmmmm....NOT!!
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Support Groups
Close Anxiety
I have had anxiety all my life and recently realized/accepted it and am taking steps to learn how to control it. There are many good books, meds, exercises, and people on this site with suggestions that help a ton. This disorder is easy to work on, and the relief is worth the work!
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- Square breathing sometimes helps if you are able to clear your mind enough to allow yourself this luxury! Or, when you begin to have an attack and concentrate on other things like squeezing your hand for a count to five on and off, your mind is able to forget the feeling of anxiety and focus on the hand or whatever else you may choose to focus on. Distractions are one of the best therapies!
- Breathwork Somewhat Helpful
- sometimes deep breaths help to calm my shallow breathing during an attack
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- affirmations reminding myself that all is well in my world and that I have a lot of love around me has helped bring me out of negative reactions, also happy music helps a lot like oldies and reggae
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Helped to calm me in situations where I was unable to talk myself out of an attack, but sometimes made me a bit sleepy, definitely evened me out in extreme circumstances
Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Treatments
- Art Somewhat Helpful
- Helped to keep my mind off of things, my body motivated, and my heart to feel fulfilled after finishing my creations. But, creativity comes and goes, so I am not able to create art any time...only when the urge really hits me.
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Helped a lot. Gets to the root of the problem and your reaction to it...and helps you to train yourself to think with better thought patterns and breaks you of a lifelong disorder.
- Music Working / Worked
- Happy music only. I was lucky enough to have Sirius radio and choose which type of genre was playing on my radio, so I stuck to happy music that lacked memory - such as the oldies (40's, 50's, and 60's, dance music, and reggae.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I have had the same psychologist for many years, and he knows me very well. He knows me as a child, and now sees me as an adult...so he knows where I came from and where all the deep rooted things are and how to get to them. He has recommended books, breathing exercises, and visualizations. He has also spoken with me to help me figure out what I couldnt define on my own.
- Reading Working / Worked
- Louise Hay writes amazing books about mental and physical well-being and positive affirmations, along with alternative methods of healing ourselves. Recently, my psychologist suggested this book: The Anxiety & Phobia Workbook by Edmund J. Bourne, PH. D. - and this workbook has helped me and my husband both in tremendous ways. It is very way to read, understand, and is highly interactive. Dr. Wayne Dyer is also an amazing author whose methods of speaking and writing are quite effective.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Made me more aware of what was going on inside my hear that I wasnt aware of. The more I talked, the more I was able to get to the deep down part of myself that caused the PTSD.
- Celexa Working / Worked
- Citalopram is a generic antidepressant. When I initially began taking it I felt worse. It is commonly stated that meds of this type will make you feel slightly worse before they make you feel better during the first few weeks of taking them. This type of medicine is meant to build up in your system before it will become 100 effective. After about 5 weeks It began to help in huge ways and I havent noticed any side effects from it.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Calms your nerves when you are having an attack and is meant to be taken as needed during the first few weeks after beginning an antidepressantanxiety med. Provides immediate calm from anxiety.
Open Back Pain
I have a herniated disc with a moderate to severe annular tear in my lower back and hip/lumbar/between L4 & L5. Sometimes the pain runs down my leg into my knee. Other times, the nerve almost feels like a knife that is stabbing into my hip. The pain changes places all the time, sometimes even feeling like barbed wire wrapped around my spine.
Treatments
- Bedrest Working / Worked
- Pillows under my knees alleviate the pain quite a bit, especially if combined with an ice pack 20 minutes on, 20 minutes off.
- Carisoprodol Not Working
- Makes me go to sleep....and feel weird the next day.
- Chiropractic Adjustment Working / Worked
- The electrodes/tens unit helped a lot. Gave me relief for a week!
- Epidural Injection Not Working
- Felt sick immediately after first injection - felt some pain relief for about 3 days out of two weeks after initial injection. Have another scheduled in 3 days. Not sure if I am willing to get another... I doubt it.
- Flexeril Not Working
- Just makes me go to sleep...
- Heat Somewhat Helpful
- I use the heating pad at times when my pain is at its worst, and sometimes it relieves the pain a bit.
- Hydrocodone Working / Worked
- Mask pain but makes me functional for some periods of time if I really need it.
- Ibuprofen Not Working
- Ibuprofen never seemed to work much for anything for me...
- Lidoderm Not Working
- Tried on multiple occasions - didnt do a thing to help...
- Naproxen Working / Worked
- Aleve seems to help a lot sometimes, while others it doesnt help at all.
- Physical Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- The condition I have is a come and go type of thing. Sometimes if I move around a bit I get some relief. Like doing my own kind of physical therapy at home, not at a facility.
- Relaxation Working / Worked
- Of course relaxation always helps, but too much relaxation drives me nuts!
- Stretching Somewhat Helpful
- Lying down and extending one leg straight while stretching other leg over the knee and opposite (hard to explain!) gives a lot of relief, but only temporarily.
- TENS Working / Worked
- Helps with nerve pain a TON!!!! I am debating buying my own TENS Unit so I dont have to go to the chiropractor all the time! I had the TENS Unit applied to my injured area on 2 separate occasions and it relieved my pain for a good two weeks. Amazing.
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ParentI lost my Dad to leukemia a year and a half ago. He was only 54. We were very close. I had to watch him go through many traumatic health episodes which still affect me today.
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- Sometimes a good cry helps if I am able to cry.
- Getting Angry Working / Worked
- Worked in the beginning a bit....but diminished after time. Sometimes I still get angry but am more at peace now and able to speak to my late father in a more accepting and even humorous way.
- Keeping Busy Working / Worked
- The more I have on my plate, the less I am thinking of my loss.
- Music Working / Worked
- Happy music ONLY! I would restrict myself to oldies, big band and reggae stations. Music holds a lot of memory...and finding a music that is upbeat and free of memory is a God-send!
- Pets Working / Worked
- Ahhh, our pets love us unconditionally and help distract us from what is missing in our lives. There is nothing in the world like an animal/pet, no matter what kind it is - they all fill my heart with joy. Just watching the birds outside at the feeder take me into another place. One of the most therapeutic reliefs possible...
- Reading Working / Worked
- Books take me into another world that is not my own, which helps distract me from feeling the loss and absence of my father.
- Remembering Somewhat Helpful
- If you are able to limit your memories to only the good times, you will find more peace in your memories. Sometimes memories arent all that great and I might focus on when my Dad was sick instead of the good memories which does NOT help at all. If you are able to control which memories you think of - ONLY the good ones will help...but sometimes they may make you sad. Memories have a fine line of therapeutic helpfulness.
- Scrapbooking Working / Worked
- Being creative helps distract me and gives an inner peace and fulfillment that somewhat fills a void from loss. After I look at my finished work, I am proud of my art and able to feel full.
- Support Groups Too Soon to Tell
- Since I just joined this site, I am still new to how others feelings and feedback may affect me. Its good to feel like you arent the only one grieving in this world for starters...
- Talking Working / Worked
- When my husband and close friends just let me vent when I feel beside myself, I feel better most of the time. Who you talk with is a fine line...and most of all - how that person relates back to you. Someone who will allow you to just vent and say whatever you need to say, good or bad - is best. Feedback is better left unsaid for me when talking about the void of my father in my life. I need the space and freedom to be the only one talking when it comes to the loss of my father.
- Time Working / Worked
- The more time passes, the more I am able to deal with and accept the loss of my father. His absence never gets easier, but time helps me to accept it and look at it in a different way.
- Celexa Working / Worked
- Generic antidepressant that helped to get me out of the hopeless and helpless frame of mind. Still helping today.
Open Depression
Depression after many tough things in life, especially losing my father...
Treatments
- Celexa Working / Worked
- Citalopram helped a ton. Took a while to get in my system but was worth the wait!
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Helps when I am able to bring myself into the mindset...
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Helps me to get to the root of the problem and understand it better so I can deal with it as needed.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- To be loved and embraced while at the bottom of the well is a gift that will always help. Sometimes you just have to be careful who you talk to - some people dont understand and can say things that may make us feel worse...










