Journal Entry for October 21, 2009
October 21, 2009 9:56am
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FK80
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About Me
FK80
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About Me
Recently rediagnosed as bipolar II. Previously diagnosed with major depression, panic disorder, and PTSD. So far haven't had much success with a wide range of treatments. If you want to know anything else just ask.
Recently rediagnosed as bipolar II. Previously diagnosed with major depression, panic disorder, and PTSD. So far haven't had much success with a wide range of treatments. If you want to know anything else just ask.
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Interests
Science (chemistry), genealogy, reading (when I feel up to it)
Science (chemistry), genealogy, reading (when I feel up to it)
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Recent Activity
Tuesday
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FK80 updated their status 2:09pm
November 9
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FK80 updated their status 2:16pm
I wish the akathisia would go away...…
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FK80 wrote a discussion post in the Depression support group: Success with Abilify? 9:20am
After trying many different medications over the past several years with minimal success, my pdoc recently…
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FK80 updated their status 8:58am
I wish the akathesia would go away...…
October 21
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FK80 and ScaredAlone are now friends 10:35am
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Journal
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P-doc is useless
October 20, 2009 12:15pm
I went to the pdoc today to see if I could either up my dose of adderall xr back up to something where I could function better, or take something …
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Anxiety getting worse again
September 25, 2009 9:10am
Even after going from 5 mg to 10 mg lexapro, my anxiety has started to get worse again. I was fine for a few days, but then it seemed to just …
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Changing medications
September 8, 2009 11:54am
The propranolol isn't working as well as I had hoped. The side effects are outweighing the benefits, so I am switching back to …
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Rainbow
How are you?
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I"m so sorry for all you're going through...
Present
Good Morning HUGS for you my friend. I hope you have a great day filled with many blessings.
I am sending you this little present today in celebration of so many things. Inside is one simple wish, as I celebrate my birthday today I am giving you a gift. Spoil yourself today, sometimes just the simple little things we do are the most important. If it is just a moment of peace or a pack of gum, take a moment today to celebrate with me the joys of growing older, wiser and more beautiful.
Quote of the day
The secret of staying young is to live honestly, eat slowly, and lie about your age.
Lucille Ball
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Little Love
Good Morning HUGS for you my friend. I hope you had a great week, and am wishing you a wonderful weekend!
Quote for today:
I know in my heart that man is good.
That what is right will always eventually triumph.
And there's purpose and worth to each and every life.
Ronald Reagan
We are all here for a reason, a purpose. Look deep inside and know that you have purpose and worth in this life and know that others see it as well. You are valuable and loved. Be kind to yourself and you will triumph in all you do.
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
Recently diagnosed as bipolar II.
Treatments
- Adderall Working / Worked
- Helps with motivation and chronic fatigue. Worked really well for depression for nearly two years, but not as much anymore. Causes some anxiety, irritability, and chest pain. Currently being tapered off of it.
- Lamictal Somewhat Helpful
- Helps control suicidal thoughts; not so much depression. Main side effects included rash (subsided after a few days), slight short-term memory problems, word-finding difficulties, blurred vision.
- Lithium Not Working
- Took this a long time ago. Made me feel like a zombie. Also caused hypothyroidism.
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- Took this in the past. Helped with depression, but stopped working after several months.
Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Diagnosed two years ago with PTSD.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Inderal Working / Worked
- Currently on 20 mg twice a day. Helps somewhat, but still have bad irritability/startle response. Causes some light-headedness, blurred vision.
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- Helps relieve my anxiety but tolerance becomes an issue
- Reading Working / Worked
- Reading books about PTSD/anxiety disorders helps with treatment (deep breathing, meditation)
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionHave had major recurrent depression for 14 years
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Terrible side effects (flu-like symptoms).
- Effexor Not Working
- Caused bad insomnia, akathesia.
- Lexapro Not Working
- Did nothing for depression. Helped with anxiety, but perhaps through apathy side effect.
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- Works if you have the patience to practice it in the long run.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Support from professors and close friends in college helped greatly in relieving my depression. Once I graduated, depression became worse again.
- Wellbutrin Somewhat Helpful
- Helped lift my mood for several months, then stopped working
- Writing Not Working
- Zoloft Not Working
- Couldn't tolerate side effects, especially akathesia
- Abilify Too Soon to Tell
- Been on this for about a week. I have moments were I can feel again the emotional numbness subsides for a bit but the akathesia is bothersome and disrupts my sleep.
Open Anxiety
Have had anxiety for 14 years, along with panic attacks and agoraphobia in the past
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- Probably the best non-medicine based therapy to help me relax when I feel tense.
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- Works well. I take 1 mg in the morning. May need to up my dose to control startle response issues.
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- Helps a lot with general anxiety/anger. Allows me to go on vacations/long trips without having panic attacks. Also helps with exaggarated startle response from PTSD.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Works when I stick with it for long periods of time.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Worked really well while I was on it. My doctor took me off of it several years ago and put me on klonopin instead.
Open Families of Prisoners
My father went to prison in 2004 for manslaughter. He is supposed to get out in 2010, but it has caused me a lot of post-traumatic stress due to financial problems and threats he makes towards my family because of his own mental health issues.
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