friday was my oldest brothers birthday …
friday was my oldest brothers birthday so i went out to eat with my family of 6 and his fiance. after i went&smoked …
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kmw 
7:42am, November 9, 2009
At the moment i amfindin it hard not to go back to ed cause like in our dressing room everyone is soo skinny like u can see everyones ribs and stuff and like its triggering me,making me feel fat!!!=( even tho i know how ill i can get if i return to ed=( .
ive started to eat healthy foods more but i dont want to go over the top and go back to ed,
does anyone else ever feel that if they start a "diet" theyll go back to ed?
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unfortunately I feel like that a lot, especially with my mom losing weight and stuff. We are both very athletic and competitive and even though she knows I'm still dealing with ed, and sadly losing at the moment, we both still tend to get caught up in stuff like that. I know it's hard and I know it sucks, but you can avoid it. you just have to fight it off and ignore it the best you can. It's great that you can tell that it's a triger and you know that it would be a bad idea to start a diet. Just keep repeating that to yourself, and just think if you did end up going back to ed you may not be able to dance anymore. Remember how miserable you would be if you went back to ed. That's probably not what you really want. Stay strong, keep fighting the urge adn hang in there. I'm here for you.
ItsMyDream2
You take the thoughts right out of my head! I stopped dancing b/c I was taking it to the extreme as well. I started using dance to help ED and hurt myself. If it's not healthy for you anymore, it's okay to let it go. I still miss it, and dance will always be a part of me, but I need time to be healthy and figure out who I am without dance. It's okay to take a break. Dance will always be around.
supposedsupergirl
i bet your no bigger than them, its ED telling you that you are
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