Ksierra's Journal

It has been a crazy day today, my son had a fit over everything I told him to do. We still managed to get his room clean! My Ex came over today to tell me he has decided to stay here in Missouri but, I just don't know what to do. He wants to get back together but, I don't know. Everything else is at a stand still Sundays are uselly a good day. Because everyone has there own thing to do and I get a well needed break from some of my reality! The mom thing never ends though(LOL) as you know. I diden't have a chance to think about my Dad today witch I guess is a step foward. I don't know why or how I could miss somthing I never had but I do! I feel guilty because we never got a chance to talk and say what needed to be said. I know he knows now but it is always on the back of my mind. I want to go to the National Cemertery where he is Bauried ( he now has a head stone)My grand father is there to and I want to visit him also(he dided when I was 4)
I still mourn him to. It's so sad to think almost all the infulentul men in my life are almost all gone! But money is tight like ALWAYS, and can't afford the gas to drive there or really anywhere else for that matter. Gas must be made out of gold these days! But going there I think, would help alot to talk to them and get all this sadness out and CRY LIKE A BABY and it would help me feel better.