inezj's Journal

Ick.... a sister with a very bad herniated disc. Four kids to care for. I lost a day of work due to it. (She visited with neurosurgeons, 2 today). The bf is lacking my presence and it taking its toll on both of us. Life may not give us the chance. That brings an overwhelming sadness to me. Economically things aren't great for all around not just me. Downsizing is increasing the workload and not being present at work today gets NOTICED. Not a good moment for not being there. Uuuugh.... a day that I'm grateful is coming to and end. I hope my sister rest somehow this night... I hope the boyfriend opens up, should we speak later tonight. And ironically here I am home and available and my daughter is out with girlfriends. Go figure. It's seems to be our inevitable reoccurring fate, our coming and going at different times, causing not sharing time together. I miss her, the bf, time just relaxing in one space. Today I was literally a chauffeur, tomorrow I will travel again, train, car. Hours upon hours. It's exhausting! I had no idea and so isolating, another I had no idea. I miss what I miss... am I ok. Yes, I am.