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Last night, I was almost ready to end it all. I have 9, not 8, bottles and bubblepacks of prescription pills that would be fatal if taken at the …
I'm an artistic Asian male, from BC, Canada, who suffers from chronic pains syndrome, extreme depression, social anxiety (my euphemism for APD) and PTSD. I'm in a long-term relationship, and I have three Siamese cats (chocolate, lilac and flame points) whom I dote on. I don't have friends where I live, and I have a tendency to push people away. I'm a hikikomori (Japanese term for 'depressed shut-in'), and I tend to veer away from any topic concerning myself. Although I've been so used to being alone with my significant other as my sole human contact, I'm aware of the fact that 'no man is an island, ' and therefore, I need friends whom I can get strength and moral/emotional support from.
I'm an artistic Asian male, from BC, Canada, who suffers from chronic pains syndrome, extreme depression, social anxiety (my euphemism for APD) and PTSD. I'm in a long-term relationship, and I have three Siamese cats (chocolate, lilac and flame points) whom I dote on. I don't have friends where I live, and I have a tendency to push people away. I'm a hikikomori (Japanese term for 'depressed shut-in'), and I tend to veer away from any topic concerning myself. Although I've been so used to being alone
iPod Touch (I use it more than I use my computer), movies, music, television, computer games, fashion, photography, psychology, books, travels, beaches, long walks, yoga, meditation, swimming, writing, drawing, digital and watercolour painting (the picture in my profile is my artwork), telly shows like CSI Miami, Ugly Betty, Project Runway, Amazing Race, Hell's Kitchen, Dateline NBC, Primetime Live, 20/20, Intervention. However, I've lost interest in 99.9% of the things that I used to be passionate about.
iPod Touch (I use it more than I use my computer), movies, music, television, computer games, fashion,
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Last night, I was almost ready to end it all. I have 9, not 8, bottles and bubblepacks of prescription pills that would be fatal if taken at the …
I don't know what to do. My headache is bad. My extremities feel like the blood in them are gushing then they go numb as soon as I think of 'it'. …
I'm writing in my journal on my notebook for the first time tonight. For the first time in 8 months, I'm without an iPod which I've …
Hey :D
Sending a little Irish luck your way, and yes, I am Irish--almost 100%, so they tell me, and if you know the America's--well, that is something in itself..do I believe it--nah--pretty much impossible unless you are truly a first generation American. I hope you are doing well, and things are ok with you. I've had a tough one so please keep me in your thoughs. Nothing is as bas as it seems...(what my Dad used to tell me)--Let me know how you are doing. Take care. Lisa
Huggies :D
In England there is this word tosser, you are a grade A tosser......didnt appreciate what you said about me, i wanted to let it go but i hate when someone calls me all the sums under the sun, dont use your illness to attack me and what happened between me and sacred is private, so here it goes, YOU TOSSER, YOU TOSSPOT, YOU TOSSER.......
thanks for replying i was so worried x
For support and education
I suffer from depression, social anxiety, GAD and PTSD. I don't have friends in the area. I have the tendency to push people away, and I'm only comfortable around people with similar problems or issues.
For support.
For support.
For support.
Possibly go back to school after a hiatus from the work force.
I've always had separation anxiety from as young as I can remember. I develop a very strong attachment to people, places and animals, and the mere thought of being separated for a period of time from anybody or anything I'm attached to causes me a great deal of distress and anxiety. I would like to feel I'm not alone with this 'disorder'.
I don't believe I have bipolar disorder since I'm lacking in the hypermania department, but one of the psychiatrists I recently saw has suggested I may have bipolar. Until I see a psychiatrist at the mood disorder clinic, I'd like to be able to get some insight bipolar individuals' minds.