Journal

As some of you know,I admitted myself to the physc. ward of the hospital because my new meds were having a adverse affect on me.And made 3 weeks of my families and myself hell.Well I got put back on the old meds I was on and I have been home for a few days now after spending 5 days in the hospital.And everything seems to be back to normal,I feel very content where my life is now

I did have my sons B-Day party lastnight  and we did have over 20 people here in the house and my anxiety did act up.But as my boyfriend took over the party I went up to my room and layed down until I felt comfortable enough to come back down to the party.And it worked out good that way.

So I told all my friends on here that I would check in when I was feeling better,So here it is I am back to where I need to be and I never want to take Seroqeul or Topamax again in my life.But while I was gone I want to Thank you all for the kind thoughts,hugs, and messages that you had left,They made me feel very supported. Thank you again!!!

Within the last 3 weeks I have been very mentally unstable.This all started originally 2 months ago,I was admitted into the hospital for plurisy.Well when they did lab work on me they found that my sodium levels were extremely low.Well that believed it was because of one of the meds I was on for my Bi-Polar.So my reg. Dr. and my Physc. Dr. got together and decided to take me off one of my meds cold turkey and without putting me on another one.

Well because of that I started having some bad mood swings.I decided to admit myself to the Physc. ward to get my meds adjusted because my Dr. was on vacation.This is where the really bad stuff started,the Dr. that was there took me off all meds and put me on two that I have never been on before,the last 3 weeks have been horrible for myself and my family.

I have never been like this before and I have had bi-polar since I was 13 and I am now 34.I am having extreme mood swings,being very mean to people,saying things I don't mean,doing weird and unusual things,having very bad nightmares,sleeping alot,not functioning properly phisically,verbal,motorskills are a wreak.Well I tried to call my Physc. Dr. and all they told me is legally because another Dr. put me on these meds they can not even talk to me,so I can either admit myself back to the physc. ward or go to the E.R.

 So because I seem to be the biggest problem in my family right now(as they tell me) I have decided to admit myself back into the pysch. unit tomorrow morning as early as possible.The reason I am waiting until morning is because I have things here I have to arrange and get together first.And if anyone is wondering the meds I am on are (Topamax and Seroquel).So I do not know how long the detox and med adjustment will take. But I will get my friends on here updated and soon as I get back and am feeling better.