SuzA66

About Me

I came to these boards to Pay it Forward. To me that means connecting with as many survivors as possible. I can only do that if I reply on the boards. No more friendship requests, please. After I dropped off all the social labels (married, mother, profession, etc., etc.) I found it difficult to say anything "about me." Here's my first try: I grew up in a family where incest was practiced and passed down for many generations. I lived in denial about my childhood for 40 years--isn't the mind amazing? Once my dad died some part of me felt safe enough to crack open the door on my past and I went into therapy. Although I have pursued my healing with a vengence, the two areas that remind me of my dysfunctional childhood are my difficulty in connecting with others, and my inability to really enjoy sex. Wow, I'd say those two areas are huge reminders. I'm grateful for all the healing I have had and am determined to heal those areas as well. I will update "about me" as I continue to heal. Update: Oh, yikes, I just realized "about me" is just about the abuse. I am more than that. I love my only child, a son. And I love the arts: music, dance, painting, theatre, writing. I hand-build pottery, quilt, and create powerful collages. I worked my way through college, in fact, am the only female in my family to earn a higher education. I love all animals, especially big dogs, and feel at peace in nature. I am fiercely independent and as a therapist once told me, "A law unto myself." There...that feels more balanced.

I came to these boards to Pay it Forward. To me that means connecting with as many survivors as possible. I can only do that if I reply on the boards. No more friendship requests, please. After I dropped off all the social labels (married, mother, profession, etc., etc.) I found it difficult to say anything "about me." Here's my first try: I grew up in a family where incest was practiced and passed down for many generations. I lived in denial about my childhood for 40 years--isn't the mind amazing?