xLilyMarie

• wondering if i'll make it.

  August 25, 2009 10:47pm

  i don't know how much longer i can take this. every single day i think about what i used to do with myself all the time. i can't imagine …

• I said "no." for the first time.

  August 10, 2009 6:24pm

  i wanted to smoke so bad. . . but didn't let myself fall apart and do it. I stayed above my own influence. god. it just makes me hate being …

• urrgh.

  August 8, 2009 5:11pm

  somehow i know my life will just spiral downwards forever. it seems as if nothing i do ever takes me anywhere.

• two days since relapse.

  August 6, 2009 7:07pm

  and hoping it doesnt happen again.

  but scared it will.

• I fucked up.

  August 6, 2009 6:55pm

  I don't know what to fucking do anymore.

  I don't have anyone or anything to turn to,

  and I hate myself for having fucked my life up so bad.

  I …

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