cinaflower's Journal

I'm at my Dad's house this weekend. We drove up here because my son has his follow up visit with the pediatric gastrointerologist on Monday. He's been doing better taking an antispasmodic but it hasn't solved everything. He still has bad stomaches sometimes, just not as often. But at least we know he doesn't have some chronic disease or syndrome now.

It was just he and I coming up here. He watched a movie on the dvd and I listened to the radio when good songs were on and to my cds I've made, I've made 8 cds so far of music I really like from my itunes, I love it.

I'm about to go for a walk/run. It's cold but I'll be warm after a few minutes, I'm sure, especially if I push myself. I weighed myself on my step mom's scale and that was a big mistake- I was fully dressed- but whatever, it put me back at my starting weight!!! That's not right, and I didn't need to see that because it makes me feel like all my hard work was for nothing- although logically I know that's not true. I won't give up. I know I'm shrinking even if the scale doesn't agree with me.

I love being on my own, driving, doing my own thing. I have to try to be more independent and find more time to do things alone. I haven't been alone for more than a day in 21 years or more! That's crazy! I want to go to a spa or somewhere alone or with girlfriends. I wish I could afford it. I can't save up for that for myself when I would like to take the kids somewhere or go on a much needed trip with the husband.

They're calling me for lunch! Gotta run. Hope everyone is well and happy and feeling good today!