cinaflower's Journal

Oh my gosh, my puppy is like a baby. He whines and barks at me for attention when I get on the computer! Next time, I see a precious animal I WILL NOT get it and bring it home and cause myself the unneeded stress and commotion that having a new pet brings. He's really cute and we all love him and it's going to be fine but I was having a crazy enough life without him and then I just added to it. It's funny how the kids are so proud to have a pet though, how it becomes a part of your lives like another child, another member of the family.

Things have been okay. I'm so proud of my new school and my new classroom. Everything works so much more smoothly because I have space and storage and two sinks and a bathroom. Once I really get used to it and get organized it's going to really make my working life and my ability to teach and do paperwork so much better. There's lots of things that haven't been ironed out- our principal is not an organized person and just flies by the seat of her pants- which doesn't work well when you have 50 staff members and 500 children all of a sudden (she had half of that before the move and couldn't even manage that well)- so I hope it works out. She also is having a power struggle with the vice principal who is very energetic and organized by nature, but they can't seem to really get it together using their strengths. The boss won't give up any control, even though she can't handle it, and she refuses to. She'd have it made if she did, she wouldn't have to do as much work if she would delegate. Okay, enough about work!!!!!

Our marriage therapist abruptly dismissed us saying he thinks we are ready to quit this last week. We only had two more sessions left- he said it'd only take 8- but it was really odd. Especially since we had just gotten something from the insurance company saying they paid him 200$ for something- one date was way before we started seeing him, and so he had said our insurance wouldn't pay anything and blah blah blah- but when we brought it up he started this tirade about how the insurancne companies don't take mental health seriously enough, etc. So, that made me really wonder about his sudden dismissal of us. We're doing much better, and we did well in counseling, it helped a lot and I'm not sure what else we could've talked about without going deeper on an individual level. But it was strange and suprising. The h and I even ended up fighting on the way home!LOL!!! I was looking at the houses out in the country as we drove and I started thinking about how nice it would be to move somewhere that I felt more comfortable in- not a fancy schmancy house- but something that doesn't need a ton of work, something in a safer part of town, something with a little more privacy. Anyway, I brought it up- asking what we'd have to do financially to move one day and he lost his freaking mind. He couldn't wrap his brain around why I'd ever want to move- even though he knows I haven't been happy with this house. It's a nice enough house- it's charming, it is. I like living downtown near all the shops and restaurants and bars, being able to walk to parades and bike to the park- all of that is cool. The house was terribly neglected before we moved in and we've already done a lot of work- but it still needs a lot of work to be what I want and to maintain it. One neighbor has a once beautiful near mansion that's falling apart. The other neighbor is 4 rent houses with obnoxious loud trashy people- within a few feet of my yard. I miss the solitude of the country, seeing sunsets, and privacy. Everyone in town passes in front of my house almost daily.  Anyway, he got belligerent at the thought that I'd want to move- and acted like I just wanted to move to some fancy expensive house to show off- and he's retarded for saying that. I just want to not have to worry so much about my home. To have it done and cute and easily maintained and not have to worry about our kids at home or loud music or crime in the area or whatever. This house causes added stress to my life, as cute and lovely as it is because of where it is and how much attention it needs. We finally ironed it out- and he said that maybe in the next five years we could keep our eyes open and see what we could do. That's all I wanted.

I have only one more week until I'm off for two weeks. I have too much to do and I'm sitting here typing instead of getting stuff done! But I do deserve some time to myself.

We went to a family reunion yesterday that was nice and we went to my son's newest friends house for a Christmas party and it was really fun. The friend's parents are so nice and I really enjoy visiting with the mom. She's a doctor but she is the most talkitive and cheerful doctor I've ever met! She's really laid back and they threw a great party for adults and kids. The weather is great. I love it a little cool, sweater weather- not too cold. I don't even own a coat and I can almost get away with it- it has been cold on duty at work a few times.

I better run, my husband and kids are at the 8th grade football teams party and I should be there already!