cinaflower's Journal

It's Sunday! Yay! I wish it were Sunday every day!!! Then I could stay home and get my crap together! LOL!

Everything is going pretty good. The h and I went shopping for Christmas Friday and got nearly everything. Money is so tight this year, I usually get lots of extras on the fly myself- but there's no wiggle room in my account this year, the h is constantly having to give me a little extra. We have to eat! I have to figure out how to manage my account though, without constantly needing to be bailed out. Both boys wanted a Wii and I wanted to get it- so we were going to get it for both of them but everywhere we went they were out- and we wanted to get it over with so we got them ipods instead. Our shopping went great until we were at Best Buy trying to decide what to do- then it got aggravating. They had some guy singing screamo music to the Wii there while we were trying to decide what to do, I thought someone was going insane in the store- and that elevated our stress levels so much and we completely lost patience with each other and for shopping- it was our last stop too before we got to go eat and we were starving. They should've kicked that dude out, how rude and annoying!

I have the house entirely decorated for Christmas. I put the h in charge of the outside lights and he's not really that great at that kind of thing- but I can't do everything and he needs to learn how to do things and I need to not say anything about it. The kids tell him the truth- I don't need to. I did ask if he tried out the lights first- to see if they worked- and it turned out most of them didn't and he had to redo what he had done. Oh well!

I survived my first week of school in the brand new school. It's so nice! I'm so proud of my space and my room. It makes my job so much easier to have what I need. The little boy who went berserk before Thanksgiving is back. He's doing fine, but it's stressful for us- knowing how violent he can get stays in the back of your mind- we don't trust him anymore- even if we don't show it and we're working on everything we can to make sure it doesn't happen again to keep everyone safe. What can we do with kids like that? He deserves an education, he's smart so he shouldn't be in special ed all day, he needs to be in school to learn how to be with other people and be a productive member of scoiety- but what about everyone's safety? What about the other children and their needs and their problems with having someone who's potentially dangerous in their midst? Special ed will not do anything else to assure us or help us- it's up to us to figure it out. I feel really bad for the parents who have to deal with kids like this- how he can hurt them or their siblings- you'd never be able to relax. It's a rough situation all around. Wish someone could come up with a cure for autism. I wish I could- I'd help people and be a gabillionaire!

Okay, I've been pretty productive this weekend so far, so I need to get going and get things done around here so I don't feel so crappy and unorganized next week.