cinaflower's Journal

I survived Thanksgiving at my house. I really tried not to get stressed about the house or cooking but I really was rushed for time, and started to get very irritated with my loved ones who were less than enthusiastic with helping. My husband really tried, bless his lazy heart! It was the first time I can remember when we've had to host an event and get the house ready and we didn't lose it with each other. For whatever reason I don't harbor any ill feelings about what he does or doesn't do, and he doesn't get all aggravated with me- he tries to listen because he knows it's important to me- and we both felt supported and like we were partners. I think if we can keep that going we'll be okay. That's one of the things the counselor has really tried to impress on us- it isn't the issues specifically- it's how you communicate and how you feel connected to each other.

Wednesday was crazy! I tried to get as much done as I could- but I had to shop and I had the boys who were not really helpful. I told the big one to blow off the driveway and concrete areas and somehow he managed to catch the blower on fire.  So, he had to rake leaves by hand. Then the little one was supposed to be watering my plants and he was spraying the big one with the hose. So, I go outside and try to talk real calmly and refocus them and Id come back in and get going, but I could hear them outside horsing around. So, I get completely fed up and go outside and the big one has the hose in his hand and I yell and him, "Put that down NOW!" and he drops it like I said- and it falls and hits right on the handle and happens to be aimed right at my face- and I got jet sprayed in the face for like 10 seconds full force- and I'm sitting there sputtering and getting pissed but I couldn't help but laugh hysterically- it was just ridiculous. I had just straightened my hair and it was ruined too! I'm trying to relax and let go- there were lots of things that were undone and messier than I wanted but I managed to get the important things done and the house seemed tidy even if behind closet doors it's a nightmare!

We all had fun, it was a really nice get together and the food was great. But it really hit me how much work we all go through for a meal that lasts maybe 15 minutes if you linger and get seconds. It was so anticlimatic I sat forever at the table waiting for it to get exciting, but my dad just isn't as talkitive as he used to be. Everyone loved my puppy and he got held all day. And my cat brought out all 5 of her kittens and we got to hold and play with them. They are so precious- 3 weeks old, maybe 4 weeks. They're all black and white except one solid black one. I hope they make it- I need to find a cheap way for them to get shots so they'll be okay. I can't spend 300$ on them- not now before Christmas, and the puppy needs his boosters and to get his nails clipped he's messing up everything, even my clothes when he sits with me.

Today, we're going to my brother's two hours away to have Thanksgiving with my mom. I'm going to get ready in a minute. I don't shop the sales on Fridays- I don't even know what I'm buying yet- the 20 year old daughter has had her list typed out for weeks- the boys don't know- and we got a recliner as a present for my husband and I- I had to make a deal to get rid of that stained and broken thing we had!! I need to make a list now and get it organized.

This weekend I'm going to relax! I'm going to do tons of laundry and just sleep and relax and have fun and forget about all the stuff I shoved in the closets until my Christmas break.

I'm okay. I need to do something about my fitness or lack thereof and my diet- to get moving again and plan my meals better, I know that would really make me feel so much better about myself and yet I put it off every day!