cinaflower's Journal

My computer is acting crazy. It took forever for this window to pop up and I just sat here forever picking my nail polish off until it came up. The internet at my house isn't working right today and I just found out somehow that the wire on the keyboard of the family computer is cut in half somehow. I stopped using that one as much when I got the internet to work on my laptop and the boys are destroying it all because I'm not checking up on it. It makes me so mad-it's things like that, that make me feel like I'm the only adult in the house checking to make sure everything is okay- to take care of our stuff. I'm aggravated with the husband right now- even though we did just have a nice date out. He's been acting so silly and stupid today, wrestling with the boys and playing around when I'm asking them to do stuff, making stupid jokes at my expense, just being an ass. I asked him why he keeps acting like that when he knows it aggravates me and he said he was just having fun. Okay, fine, have fun- and I'm going to keep thinking I have four kids to raise instead of the three I gave birth to. We'd really been doing pretty good lately but today he's really gotten on my nerves- AND I really want to have sex and I'm not getting any. He's snoring his brains out without a care in the world. Why did I end up with one of the rare guys without sex on their brains? Jeez!
I got a new haircut today and highlights. I cut about 3 inches off and got bangs which I haven't had in years. I got it straightened but it won't be like that for long. It gets too frizzy, especially around the face. After I got my hair done I went to my son's football game and I was feeling so cute and sassy and I was talking to a friend and this guy who's our friend that I've always had a little crush on was next to us and my husband walked up and said something really loud and lame in front of everyone about my hair- so that's what started it- and it's like once he does that- he keeps going and going until I almost want to strangle him. Why couldn't he have been sweet and said something nice to me about how cute I looked? He liked my hair but he had to turn it all into a big joke and embarrass me. asshole. I will try very very hard to let it go. Tomorrow I will be productive and exercise and I will feel better and possibly can let it go.
Our assignment this week is to come up with some rules for our daughter, and we need to sit down and talk- I mentioned it to him and he thinks we already are done with it. I need him to be more active in it all- talking about things, wishing things were different doesn't all by itself make it happen. You have to work at things to make them happen. I believe you can make anything happen if you want it bad enough- but it takes effort and action and a belief that you can do it.