cinaflower's Journal

I walked 6 out of the last 8 days. I ran in tiny bursts two days, yesterday I ran for 6 minutes total- not much but it was all I could do. I did arms, abs, squats, some yoga moves and lots of stretching almost every day. I'm proud of myself. I didn't even eat as much crap although I was not really trying to "diet." I just want to eat more healthfully. I have so much energy already it's crazy. My mood has lifted and I feel tighter and fitter already, although that's probably not possible. It's all in my mind, all the lovely chemicals coursing through my veins making me feel good and fixing my body inside/out. I feel good and I am so so thankful for that, my health and peace of mind.

Things are crazy at work because of all the time off, grades and all of that. All of us are so unorganized, especially me because when I get distracted by something I am not nearly as productive.

I've decided not to say another negative thing to the h. I'm just going to relax. I'm going to take care of myself and see if my good cheer and happiness and action will rub off on him. I will tell him what needs to be done, I will initiate talking and being with him and hugging and stuff, but I won't criticize anymore at all. Maybe if I act more loving he will too. Well, I hope. He really does ignore me for the most part and it's not about talking, really. It's about wanting to be with me and wanting to touch and look at me and be engaged in my life. I would be perfectly fine about us being busy and running around being independent and doing our own thing if he was loving in my presence. I'm really trying, lord help me!!!! LOL!

Okay, today I'm not exercising, I have pokeno with the girlfriends and I'm sore from yesterday. I feel like I pulled a muscle in my upper back too, not fun.

I'm dreaming about running in races. I need to find one in the spring to aim for.