cinaflower's Journal

I had a decent weekend. Friday I took two kids out to eat to celebrate school being over, the middle one was at a friend's house. Saturday I went shopping for plants, clothes, and food. I came home and planted the plants- flowers- looks fabulous. My youngest had a friend over to spend the night and we went to see Narnia, Prince Caspian. I really enjoyed it, I loved all the books when I was in about 5th grade, so that was nice to see it. My mom came from out of town and spent the night and I saw her when I woke up late on Sunday. She sleeps late too, like me and it takes us a while of drinking coffee before we're functional. So, she and I walked around the yard looking at my plants, discussing things to do, projects, plants I need- she works as a curator for a historic garden and she's a plant addict so she brings me all kinds of stuff. We ate lunch and then made a potting bench out of my old countertop and sink, and then cleaned up the area under this BBQ shed (I don't know what else to call it- it's a big concrete area with a roof, electricity, lights, and a fan- almost a room). That was fun- to finish a project and get things organized. Then I had to get cleaned up and make a huge salad for this party we went to. It was about 8 or so of my husband's closests friends from high school and their wives and kids. It was really nice. Our friend had just about finished restoring and remodeling his house and yard in the most lovely and creative way and it's just awesome and sits on the edge of our city park. They had a fun jump and tables and chairs outside under a huge live oak. It was really hot yesterday but everyone had a great time, I think. I think one of my friends has the hots for my husband. It doesn't really bother me- because I don't think anything will happen- she's happily married and has four kids- but she always is around my husband when we are all together, and maybe she just feels really comfortable with him and they just get each other's jokes- but they'll be talking and when I come up it's almost like I'm raining on a parade. Maybe I'm reading too much into it. But if she wants to run off into the sunset with him I wish them luck!!! I think everyone gets crushes or imagines what if a little with someone, I know I have, so I don't think it's crazy.

Now the big news!!!!!

My crazy silly little daughter is going to LA! We talked and talked! She actually has 700$ and now really she has 300$ more- because I found some old savings bonds and my mom gave her a belated birthday check. The only thing we were really able to contribute is the use of our gas card- but only every other tank. And I told her we weren't going to even let her use that unless she could guarantee that she would have someone to ride with her both ways. I just am hoping that she'll be okay in LA with her friends- I have to trust that and her. My brother is in San Diego, my mom's sister in law is in LA (although she's leaving for Florida soon- but she has contacts-) and she knows people- and my friend gave me the numbers of her sister and mother- and everyone I talk to knows someone there- so if anything happened she'd be okay. And if she can't get a job or something happens she can always retreat to my brother's house and I could fly out there and drive with her back. My brother still hasn't called me back, though! So, she decided to LET me drive her to LA and we're leaving Friday. First night in San Antonio, second night in Tucson, Arizona. I'm excited, I've never gone anywhere alone. I tried once. I went to a college about an hour and a half from here and stayed in a hotel for a week to attend a workshop on a language program- and ended up having to come home to get a root canal. That was about 6 or 7 years ago. That was a fun week! NOT!

So, it'll be okay. The husband has been very supportive. Once I decided what to do he supported me and backed me up and is trying to figure out the money part of it without losing his mind, which is very impressive. He realizes that I need him to be okay with me doing this, it's better for her- plus she and I will get to bond and spend time together-

I think that's the part she hates- she actually told me I talk too much in the car- I guess that's probably true.  And he also realized that I had never been anywhere alone and this was something I needed to do, that it'd be good for me to get away and that I deserved it- although it'll probably be more work than fun- driving nearly the whole day. I'll probably be the one to fly back and get her in a month or so- except I'll go to San Diego to my brother's and she'll meet me there. I'm excited. I'm also going to clean out her room while she's gone- unpack, clean, fix it up, and put back only necessities so she can function in there. Shh! Don't tell her, she'll freak out!

The boys are already bored, which is just too bad. They're going to have to learn how to entertain themselves this summer, I 've got stuff to do. We'll have some fun and we'll go do stuff- but not every day.

The H and I are okay, we're just existing right now- doing what we have to do. At the party last night I was thinking about all the friends I'd lose if he and I split up- I wouldn't be invited to a get together like that again- I'd still see some of the girls through our kids and my pokeno group- but it'd be wierd. But that whole group is his friends from high school. He seems to be feeling better for whatever reason and that's good. He actually put the moves on me the other night and we both had a very nice time for the first time in a while, if you know what I mean! So, that's good!!!

I do have a lot of crap going on and I have a lot to do. I need to go to the doctor for my wrist, ankle, and knee (I can't squat! It's like being stabbed! I hit it when I fell when I hurt the ankle!) Everyone tells me- well, it just takes longer to heal at YOUR AGE!  WTF? I'm only 39!!! When I complain my husband keeps telling me, you need to get healthy. He's right, but all the regular things I did to get in shape are hard for me to do right now. I'll figure it out! Okay, gotta start the day!

Hooray!!!! Summer is here and I'm relaxed!!!!!