need to complain in cyberspace
July 2, 2009 1:08am
I'm really okay, right?
I'm really fine. At least that's what I keep telling myself.
Physical therapy is going well and I can finally see …
Goal Completed on Feb 14, 09
cinaflower
12:08pm, May 16, 2009
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About Me
cinaflower
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About Me
I'm a special ed teacher and the mom of 3 great kids. My daughter is 19. I just bought an old fixer upper and I'm spending my free time working on it and the yard, when I'm not procrastinating.
I'm a special ed teacher and the mom of 3 great kids. My daughter is 19. I just bought an old fixer upper and I'm spending my free time working on it and the yard, when I'm not procrastinating.
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Interests
running, exercising, reading, gardening, my kids, music, teaching
running, exercising, reading, gardening, my kids, music, teaching
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Recent Activity
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1 journal comment, 1 journal post
Thursday
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cinaflower wrote a journal entry: need to complain in cyberspace 1:08am
I'm really okay, right? I'm really fine. At least that's what I keep telling myself. Physical…
Wednesday
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cinaflower commented on marylouwho’s journal entry From the school of slow learners here 11:06am
For some reason I was compelled to come on here today, and I hadn't been on in a while- and it's funny…
June 19
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cinaflower and carebear09 are now friends 12:25pm
February 23
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cinaflower turned 40 12:00am
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Journal Entry for May 16, 2009
May 16, 2009 12:59pm
I haven't been on here in two months. It's funny that my little profile update said, "ready for change" and that last journal …
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Journal Entry for April 6, 2009
April 6, 2009 2:53pm
Not much has changed. It's all good, honestly and I hope it keeps staying this way. I was talking to the H the other day and telling him about …
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Journal Entry for March 29, 2009
March 29, 2009 2:52pm
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I've had such a busy week, but it's really been pretty good. I feel positive, blessed and lucky for all that my …
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spring is here!!!!
March 21, 2009 1:50pm
Yay! It's time for spring!!! It's so gorgeous here and I'm going to try to go work in the yard without breaking anything this time! My …
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Moment of Peace
My thoughts and prayers are with you always my friend.
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I'm setting up a new computer and I was getting so frustrated I 've been cursing this am. Can ya believe they charge so much and start taking away wahat was always part of the package......now going backwards to address these issues are a real pain in the butt. Ugh. Hope your day is better than this.
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you look beautiful in your photo. Catch up soon xx
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Typos- Trying again: I really love your new photo.
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I have to give out a few hugs today to take my mind off how much I hate doing taxes. Yes i rally love your new photos!
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Support Groups
Close Breakups & Divorce
I started dating my husband my senior year in high school. Six months later I was pregnant, married, and in college. We've been married 21 years now and with a lot of work and perserverence we're finally coming out the other end of a really rough time.
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Working / Worked
- We finally found a counselor that was smart enough and knew what he was doing and it's making a big difference in how we relate to each other and communicate. It doesn't take away the conflict- we just handle it differently.
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- forgiving your spouse for whatever it is frees your spirit up so that you can work on today, forgiving yourself and recognizing your wrongs allows you to have compassion
- Love Somewhat Helpful
- I didn't think I loved him anymore for a long time, I was wrong- it was there behind all the hurt feelings- I had to forgive and let go to find it.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Helped me understand myself and what I do a bit more.
- Time Working / Worked
- I think sometimes if you hang in there and you both are honest and working on yourselves and the relationship it's possible to save things.
Close Eating Disorders
I've been a compulsive eater most of my life, I got up to about 240. About the same time I was at an all time high my daughter was diagnosed with anorexia. I was 240, she was 84 lbs. When I finally picked myself up by my bootstraps to take care of her and my family I realized that I needed to change, to stop sitting around feeling sorry for myself and just make my life better.
Treatments
- Outpatient Treatment Program Somewhat Helpful
- The nutritionist refused to keep seeing my daughter because she wasn't trying- but I kept up with the plan myself for her. Therapy helped us all.
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- Carbs! I try to stay away from the white stuff- it's like crack!
- Eat Less Working / Worked
- I just try to eat less, try to think about it being just enough.
- Weight Watchers Somewhat Helpful
- I lost and gained several times, but I wasn't ready when I tried this.
Open Fitness Goals
Type: Be the best you can beI was 240! I've lost 45 pounds so far mostly by just refusing to sit around feeling sorry for myself. I went from barely being able to walk a mile to being able to run a mile. I try not to eat white carbs and to not use food to make me feel better.
Treatments
- Running Working / Worked
- A year ago I started running. One minute at a time. One minute was hard! Can run a mile now without dying. It really transformed my body and my outlook on life.
Open Healthy Sex
cinaflower hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Stress Management
I am a working mother with 3 kids ages 19-9. My marriage has been iffy and I'm so stressed out!!!!!
Treatments
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- Running and walking helped a lot, right now my back hurts when I walk or run so I have to figure that out.
Open Hysterectomy
I had an endometrial ablation/tubal ligation/hysterscope in Nov. 2006. Was fine until fall of 2007, started having a great deal of pain. Had Adenomyosis. Got a Total abdominal hysterectomy in Nov. 2007. It was rough! In Feb. 2008 started feeling bad, got swollen and out of breath and really tired and achy- had to go in- my ovaries had ruptured and had adhesions everywhere. Took all that out. I'm so much better now!
Treatments
- Premarin Working / Worked
- makes things better down there- but it still gets dry and itchy sometimes.
Open Healthy Relationships
I've been married 20 years, which is truly a miracle after all we've been through.
Treatments
- Couples Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- it helped to have someone to talk to but it didn't solve any issues- the hardest stuff has to be worked out alone
- Patience Somewhat Helpful
- sometimes time and working through your own stuff brings enlightenment in the most interesting ways
- Talking Working / Worked
- it always helps to talk things out, to be honest and forthcoming with your spouse
- Writing Working / Worked
- I have to write, I'm the only one who listens to me
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
I'd smoked since I was 14- not a ton, maybe like 5 or 7 a day at the worst. It made me feel like crap and I hid it from my kids which was stressful. I quit January 2008 and except for the occaisional bumming from my friend when we've had a drink, have no desire to smoke again. I feel so much better!
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- I just stopped. I stopped buying them, and talked myself out of needing it every day until it wasn't the only thing on my mind.
- Willpower Working / Worked
- just quit, period
Open Menopause
I'm 39. I had endometrial ablation in Nov. 2006, had a total abdominal hysterectomy Nov. 2007- had adenomyosis, thought I was healing slowly- had fluid in ab- went in for a lap and woke up without ovaries (hem. cysts, adhesions, etc.) and now about to hit menopause!
Treatments
- Estrogen Patch Working / Worked
- It's only been a week.
Open Rosacea
I had lovely skin until I was around 30. I had acne and my face got redder and redder and thick and just not nice. I've been using metrogel and other products for years and it's much better although not gone. Alcohol makes me flush. The blushing gets embarrassing too!
Treatments
- MetroGel Working / Worked
- been putting it on every morning for nearly 10 years- it helps a lot
Open Sexual Abuse
My husband was sexually abused as a child.
