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angeldove66 
7:43pm November 19
I'm the quiet girl behind that tree
I'll climb to the top and be free
alone with the birds that sing to me
the only ones that listen to me
I close my eyes and fly away
for a moment in time I feel alive
I'll leave all my pain and sadness behind
to blow away with the wind
sometimes I wonder why
I even try to please her
I don't even think she cares
I'm not the important one
That would be her son
and now here I am again
picking up the pieces
of what he's left behind
caring for her and her
deteriorating mind
I'll climb to the top and be free
alone with the birds that sing to me
the only ones that listen to me
I close my eyes and fly away
for a moment in time I feel alive
I'll leave all my pain and sadness behind
to blow away with the wind
sometimes I wonder why
I even try to please her
I don't even think she cares
I'm not the important one
That would be her son
and now here I am again
picking up the pieces
of what he's left behind
caring for her and her
deteriorating mind
Comments
Angel, this is a lovely poem. I know you're hurting right now because it feels like you're alone in doing the work of caretaker. Be gentle with yourself, know that there are others who *are* listening and want you to remember how strong you are to be tending to a deterioating mind, even when (or especially when) that person doesn't seem to understand that you've made her a priority though you don't seem to have reciprocity in that caring and respect.
Her mind may be going, but her soul knows you and loves you for all you do. That knowledge might not take the pain away or make your burdens easier to bear, but it's a good thing to know.
big smushy hugs because you deserve them for being so caring and selfless,
~b.
bookmaven
thanks sweetie, I do know that in her own way she's thankful I'm here for her.
It has been very hard though moving back in and having to deal with the past memories that come flooding back to me at times. I though that I had put them to rest but, I'm finding out I still have some work to do with my inner child. I am very thankful I have found a haven here to help the spirit within me grow. blessings to you ^j^
angeldove66