I am back on the Not-So-Merry-Go-Round....
July 27, 2009 9:22pm
I saw him on Saturday. He took me on a date. Nothing I say will justify this. I am weak. I am too weak to let him go if he still wants me.
July …
AmyLiz26 
3:32pm Yesterday
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About Me
AmyLiz26
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About Me
I am 26. Survivor of abuse (barely).. C-PTSD.. starting all over again.
I am 26. Survivor of abuse (barely).. C-PTSD.. starting all over again.
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Recent Activity
Recently:
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3 hugs received, 2 photo uploads, 2 discussion posts, 1 hug given
Yesterday
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AmyLiz26 posted a new photo 8:29pm
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AmyLiz26 posted a new photo 8:29pm
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AmyLiz26 gave Tamehau a little love 8:12pm
loooooooooooooooooooove yoooooooooouuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!!!…
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AmyLiz26 wrote a discussion post in the Physical & Emotional Abuse support group: The Nightmares..... 4:04pm
For the past 3 weeks or so, I have had recurring nightmares. Bad ones, most of which consist of just…
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AmyLiz26 wrote a discussion post in the Physical & Emotional Abuse support group: My Update.... 3:56pm
First, I want to say: Hiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've been gone for far too long. Far Far too long. I'm so sorry…
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Journal
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What is happening...
July 21, 2009 11:20pm
My sons father...used to do things to me that I couldnt understand. I was only 17. Jesus Christ, I was only 17 years old. "You could be a …
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Journal Entry for July 16, 2009
July 16, 2009 5:02pm
I haven't heard from him today. Or yesterday. I actually had to text him yesterday regarding some things I need him to drop off to my …
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I'm Desperate.....
July 16, 2009 2:03pm
http://www.fundable.com/groupactions/groupaction.2009-07-16.6692911135
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God damn that text......
July 15, 2009 7:07pm
How do I feel right now?? I mean, I know how I felt last night when I got it: freakin' giddy! Haha, you motherfucker. Don't you feel like an …
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Hugbook
Hug
Where have you been? I haven't seen you online in a while. How are things?
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Little Love
Back at cha Ms. Thang! LOTS!
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Hug
Big ole hug to you my love! Take care of you!
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Kiss
Well I guess I have to send you a kiss (SMOOTCHA) . Love ya and miss ya!!!
Thanks
Thank you very much Amy. It just sucks being a teenager because all my emotions are ten times greater than normal : / thanks for understanding though.
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Photos
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Support Groups
Close Physical & Emotional Abuse
I was physically and verbally abused by my father. Physically and verbally abused by my older brother. Physically/psychologically/verbally/emotionally/sexually abused by my son's father. Emotionally abused by my latest X. It's been a long road of pain in this regard. And a struggle everyday to believe that it wasn't all my fault. I hope one day to forgive. Myself. My abusers. Unfortunately the relationship with my father is too tortured for repair; mostly because he has chosen for it to be.
Treatments
Close Breakups & Divorce
Lied to, mind fucked, cheated on, emotionally abused. dodged a bullet, I suppose. It's still so hard to deal with feeling like that abuse he inflicted wasn't somehow my fault.
Treatments
- Leave Working / Worked
- One day at a time. But no more panic attacks. No more walking on eggshells.
- Pets Working / Worked
- Cash, dog in black. Such a goober. But he gets me out of the house since he has an obsession with his Frisbee.
- Running Somewhat Helpful
- Im SO not a runner. Which is why I do it. Because it doesnt take very long for me to exhaust myself to the point of not caring about any of my emotional pain.
- Support Groups Somewhat Helpful
- Just online for now.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- People don't understand. Particularly because of the abuse factor. I dont have anyone to really talk to anyway..
- Time Too Soon to Tell
- I know that this will work. IF I choose positive behaviors during the passing time. We shall see...
Open Financial Challenges
Wrongful Termination.. Lost everything.
Treatments
- Earn Money Too Soon to Tell
- http://www.fundable.com/groupactions/groupaction.2009-07-16.6692911135
