Journal

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage: Dr. Pepper
3. last text message: Dalton (my son)
4. last song you listened to: "3 little piggies" by Green Jelly (Heavy Metal my baby Gary forced me to listen to)
5. last time you cried: Last month on Father's Day (my son upset his dad's not here anymore)

YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice: Yes,when I was young & stupid
7. been cheated on: TOO MANY TIMES!!!!
8. kissed someone & regretted it: Yes, unfortunately..that was along time ago
9. lost someone special: :too many
10. been depressed: yes
11. been drunk and threw up: Yes a few times

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. Brown
13. Black
14. Midnight Blue

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend: yes many
16. Fallen out of love: no
17. Laughed until you cried: Absolutely!
18. Met someone who changed you: YES most Definately
19. Found out who your true friends were: yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you: YES, and they still do unfortunately
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: All of them!
23. How many kids do you want to have: 1 more maybe? (3 total)
25. Do you want to change your name: no except perhaps my last name :)
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Went to Texas Road house & then a B-Day party at my Mom's.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: SLEEPING!
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: A cruise to the Caribbean or Disney World someday!
30. Last time you saw your Mother: Tuesday
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? Dunno..evrything happens 4 a reason.
32. What are you listening to right now : My 2 Shih-Tzus wrestling
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Yep, back in school
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Waking up in pain every morning due to my MS!
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook & Myspace
36. Whats your real name: Shannon Marie Perry (Pratt my Maiden name)
37. Nicknames: Mom, baby, sweetie, Pot-Of-Honey
38. Relationship Status: In a relationship
39. Zodiac sign: Gemini
40. Male or female? : female
41. Elementary? : East elementary in Waverly, Ohio
42. Middle School : East Elementary then North Elementary in Waverly, Ohio
43. High school/College: Waverly HS
44. Hair color: naturally a dark brown, blond, red, chestnut highlights & Lt. warm brown 4 base color
45. Long or short : Medium
46. Height = 5'2"
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: Yes, more than a crush..I love him w/ all my heart!
48: What do you like about yourself? I'm a great listener, I sense things,I can pretty much read what's on people's mind alot..ever since I was a little girl.
49. Piercing: ears
50. Tattoos:… yes, 2
51. Righty or lefty: righty

FIRSTS :
52. First injury: Fell onto concrete landing face down & bit a sm. piece of my tongue 1/2 way off when I was 3...but they sowed it back 2gether thankfully!
53. First piercing: ears
54. First best friend: Can't remember that far back...my MS messes w/ my memory alot these days!
55. First sport you joined: Nothing..I was too busy dating..LOL!
56. First vacation: St. Louis w/ my angel Gary back in March 2009. How sad is that????
58. First pair of trainers: ?????????????

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating: Just finished Roast Pork loin and Mac n CheeseIt's 5:30 in the morning! I won't eat til noon.
60. Drinking: Dr. Pepper...it's my coffee
61. I'm about to: Trying to finish this & take my Shih-Tzus out to potty
62. Listening to: Silence!!!!!
63. Waiting on: Another turning point in my life.

FUTURE :
64. Want kids? : I have 2 sons (13 & 8) I'd like to have a little girl b4 I get too old.
65. Get Married? : Want to but not sure what plans God has for me yet.
66. Career: Working on it..I'm back in school.

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes=eyes
68. Hugs or kisses: kisses
69. Shorter or taller: Taller than me
70. Older or Younger: older
71. Romantic or spontaneous :Both!
72. Nice stomach or nice arms : Strong arms..but doesn't matter
73. Sensitive or loud: Sensitive
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :
77. Drank hard liquor: definitely
78. Lost glasses/contacts: Yes  sunglasses
80. Broken someone's heart: Maybe a couple long long time ago
81. Had your own heart broken: Definitely
82. Been arrested : Yes, only once 4 something petty & stupid!
83. Turn somone down : Yes, unfortunately.
84. Cried when someone died: YES, too many deaths in past yr.
85. Fallen for a friend? YES. My angel Gary whom I've known for 12 wonderful years.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself : Yes,it's amazing what I've been through & got through which made me a stronger person
87. Miracles: Definitely
88. Love at first sight? Not sure..never experienced it.
89. Heaven= Looking forward to it :^) but I can wait a long time
90. Santa Claus: Still fun to believe
91. Turned someone down: Yep…
92. Angels: Of course

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: Yes, but I was in Jr. High
95. Did you sing today? Only in the car or bath

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? Dec. 1st 2008, the night of my car wreck w/ my sons in the car & my oldest almost died in my arms.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? My baby & I on our 1st date!
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? NO!! It's the best feeling in the world! True love is indescribeable.
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Yes

    This morning I woke up feeling very bad, my body just hurt from head to toe and I have an upset stomach. I had kinda rough night last night, it started out ok. I don't know I'm just confused and frustrated I guess dealing with the MS chronic pain every day and taking my pain meds & other meds I have to take on a daily basis. Maybe it's just nerves, stress or maybe unanswered questions, not knowing sometimes what my future holds for me in all aspects such as my future with MS, my future with my sweetheart, which I know he loves me with all his heart because he shows it every day, but he holds back what he's scared of..like me getting pregnant again after my miscarriage. We were shocked at 1st of course..then he started coming around getting used to the idea of maybe having a little girl. I have a small opening in 1 of my tubes from my tubal over 8 yrs. ago. It has kinda took a small toll on our intamacy (of course he apologizes for all of it), but at the same time I understand because his only child is almost grown and he's scared to start over. That's ok with me if he doesn't want another, but it hurts at the same time..dunno I can't put it into words right now how to explain it to others.

     I put my self back on the pill, but my OB/GYN says I can only stay on it for 6 months since it's dangerous for a woman in her 30's to be on the pill. Also considering I smoke and my MS she said. So what happens then when I can't take it anymore. I know he won't stop loving me, he's always going out of his showing me, telling, rubbing me down when my body hurts so badly and he's always puts my considerations 1st and taking care of me especially after all the surgeries that I've had in the past few months. He is a gift from God after my late husband passed away last year.

    I know God works in mysterious ways and I believe somewhat we can't always control our future. I believe that God decides who comes in & out of our lives and what we are destined to do, to be, our soul mate if God blesses us to find our true soul mate. I've known that he's my soul mate for awhile, it's just something I know. I don't know if others can feel or just know things. Ever since I was little I would get these feelings that I just know what will happen and looking into peoples eyes and just knowing what kind of person they are, how they're feeling or what's on their mind. I always watch & make good eye contact when I'm listening or talking because I believe the eyes are the windows to the soul. You look deep enough you can see everything, maybe not everything at first but you'll see what's on their mind and feel what they're feeling soon enough. You'll be able to see it in their eyes & feel it in your heart.

     Well I guess I've done enough rambling for today. I hope everyone has a great day!