Bliggy's Journal

I just quit two support groups : Obama's America and Health care reform. I don't think these are what I need in terms of support for my illnesses/afflictions, whatever you want to call them. I'm here to find some healing, not to debate politics. If you are an ultraconservative firebrand, I will offer you all the support I can in this forum and I believe the same is true if the roles were reversed. In my humble opinion, and I am new to this site, I don't think it is positive to inject too much politics into this forum. My father was a journalist. I grew up arguing and debating at the supper table. Now matter how hard we tried, political discussions often ended up being slugfests.

I don't want to offend anyone. I want to comfort and I am seeking comfort. I love this site and the friends that I've made already are such a great group of people. I don't want to say something that might offend or hurt them. I saw a video of a townhall meeting in New Jersey where some people in the back of the room were heckling a woman in a wheelchair while she had the mike. First of all, I don't think they knew that she was wheelchair-bound. Someone video-taped one of the hecklers saying, "Just because she's in a wheelchair, why should she have more rights than me?" His face was bright red. You could tell he was very angry. What really happened there? I'm asking myself because in between those little bits of footage, thousands of events occured in various chains for each person. That man was upset about something else. Maybe he was upset because he never got a chance to speak. I know that kind of stuff really pisses me off. More than likely, if they met in any other setting, they'd smile at each other, and that same man would think, "That poor woman! I wonder why she's in that wheelchair?"

Don't get me wrong. I know that there are messed up people who hate me just because I'm sick and walk with a cane. I don't know what their hangup is. One man on the subway always sits in the handicapped seat in the first train of the subway car.  If you ask him to move, he gets incredibly hostile! There I am, crippled, broken and he's gonna glare at me the rest of the ride just because I asserted my right to that seat? I get so few breaks in life, and he wants to begrudge me this? That's antisocial behavior at its best! I don't know how I got from my beginning topic to here, but I just want to find a safe harbor where I can share my experiences and knowledge and maybe pick up the same from others as well. The other last point is that I know I am a target to criminals who think I'm weak. Hell, I am weak. But I am also walking with this hollow piece of metal that over a yard long (I'm a bit tall). I've come close to swinging it a couple of times, but I've held back.

Oh, the stories I could tell. About the thug who knocked my hat off of my head just because I gave him a brief  smile as I sat down in my seat on the subway. Or how about the 3 juvenile delinquent lesbians who attacked me with waterpistols on the same subways system. I was told by the conducter to calm down or he'd have to call the sheriff! That's my world out there in Los Angeles. For such a sunny place, people are unbelievably cold. I don't know how I got into all that. I'll stop writing now. I'm spent.