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JustVisting 
11:43am, July 5, 2009
I made it up to Day 12 of my first goal of 14 days of no gambling, and I relapsed. I tried $30 in the slot machine after work. So I decided to start over on the goal. So I am now on Day 6 of no gambling.
This weekend, after the baby was asleep, I had the strong urge to go to the casino. I even asked my niece if she would want to stay with the baby. Luckily she was already out with friends, there went my chance.
It does feel good to have money and be accountable. At the same time, I find myself white-knuckling it. The downtimes are hard. That's when the urges really kick-in.
I am hoping to go to the States this coming weekend. I will really need to hang on to my money if everything works out.
I still log into websites and read posts. I use them as reminders on where I don't want to go.
Thanks for reading.
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Hi JustVisiting...sorry it took me so long to reply to your post, I guess I missed it. I hope you're not still white-knuckling it, it's nerve wracking, I know how that feels. As time goes by, it gets easier to handle, many times addicts lose the desire to gamble, I'm one of those. It doesn't mean I'm cured, there isn't one, so I consider it a blessing, and am grateful. I hope things are going well for you. Just for today I will not gamble....xxxooo Robin
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