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JustVisting 
11:43am, July 5, 2009
Yesterday was hard. I was filled with worry and anxiety over my finances. Today I am hoping to pay off that NSF cheque. I sent an email to my landlord and explained what has been really happening the past two or three months, and that I am working to regain accountability and assistance. It is easier to tell strangers of my gambling then it is to my partner. I haven't had the courage yet to do that. I admit that it is a cowardly thing.
When I think of the debts that need to be paid, that is when the panic kicks in and I tell myself to go and gamble, because I just might win enough money to pay the bills. Or to win my money back. It is awful.
Today is Day Five for not gambling.
