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Step One says---- "We admitted that we were powerless over gambling......" Powerless......once I start, I cannot stop. I cannot control …
Doxi commented on eastwester’s journal entry Journal Entry for November 9, 2009 9:20pm
Eastwester, I just recently realized that I am not ready to stop gambling. I realized it as I was walking…
Step One says---- "We admitted that we were powerless over gambling......" Powerless......once I start, I cannot stop. I cannot control …
I woke up and felt good. I thought, "hey, I'm actually feeling good, I wonder what bad stuff is going to happen today?" I …
I want it.......and I want it right now. I'm not prepared to wait for my reward, I want my reward immediately. I'm bored, and I don't …
Part of the reason I have avoided abstinence is because of the fear of relapse. I once lost 35 lbs and looked great. When I realized that i …
Doxi,
Myself, I continued to drink, continued to use drugs, continued to gamble.......... until the consequences became so severe that I could no longer accept them. I pray that you do not need to reach that point. We all seem to have a different bottom, mine was very deep........ until that bottom is reached, many believe that a turnaround into recovery is unlikely or impossible.
Did you notice, above, gams' comment about stopping pouring the alcohol down the sink.........Might as well let 'em drink it, it'll bring 'em to the point of being "helpable" sooner.
Here's a suggestion.......again from gams......no money means no gambling. ......Get rid of ALL access to money.....no cash, no credit cards, no debit.......give over TOTAL control of ALL finances to someone else. You've proved it, right? You cannot be trusted with money......your entire financial life is out of control, totally unmanageable. You cannot safely be in possession of money....... it's like a drunk walking around with a bottle of liquor......not a good idea.
This might sound like a drastic measure.....your disease is going to supply you dozens of reasons why you can't do it, why it isn't practical, how no one else can do this for you, how just gotta have money sometimes, etc. etc. ......... all of this thinking is HOGWASH, you can get by just fine without access to money, just try it, you'll see.
Your other choice, as I see it, is to continue on as you've been going ...... continue to gamble.......eventually, you'll find your bottom........ When you do, you'll learn the true meaning of misery, hopelessness, despair, desperation and self-loathing. It's your choice, you don't need to go there, you have other options available to you.
I've seen "Bottom".......trust me, you don't wanna go there......it ain't pretty.
You can do it, I am praying for you!
WOW!!!!! Let's see....... you've given up access to cash, you're seeing a counselor, attending GA meeting, reading literature (Wayne Dyer is excellent stuff)...... seems to me that you're following up on all the suggestions that you've been given.......Great stuff!!!!! You keep up the good work, you're doing AWESOME!!
What have you been doing for the past month? (insofar as gambling and recovery are concerned)........ next question....... What would you like to do? (What type of help do you feel might be of value to you?)......... next question...... Do you feel that you can go through the next 24 hours without gambling?
Keep in touch!!! We'll all help if you give us a chance to do so......try writing a couple lines in your journal each day.....it seems to help......ask questions, talk about how you're feeling...... don't sit alone feeling hopeless ....talk to us.