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Haddanuff 
The definition of "desire" is:
-To feel or want strongly
-The feeling that accompanies an unsatisfied state
-Hope, expect and wish
-An inclination to want things
-Express a desire for
I know as sure as I'm sitting here punching buttons on my keyboard that at some point the desire to gamble again will rear its ugly head. When it happens how will I respond? What can I do now to make me stronger and better able to resist the temptation? I can keep visiting this site to set (realistic) goals, write in my journal, participate in discussions, share experiences and encouragement. I can evaluate and organize my current financial situation. I can go to GA meetings and I can volunteer at the eldercare home nearby. I can go to the library to stock up on self-help books. I can call someone who understands.
They say this disease is "insidious" and I agree.
Sometimes when I think or speak, I can't even tell the difference between the real me and the disease. Where do I end and the illness begin? At what crucial point do I start to lose the battle? Where in my train of thought is that critical line in the sand drawn? When does my resolve begin to waver? And most important of all, how do I sew those ragged seams together to form stronger, more durable fabrics of consciousness?
Desire.
I must first embrace and then constantly strive to strengthen my desire to stop gambling.
