Journal

I thought my days of hypoglycemia were over!  It's been 20 years since I was first diagnosed.  I went on my diet and stayed on for 4 years, felt great, looked great and my blood sugar was awesome.  Did I fool myself into a fall sense of security that it would never come back?  Or that it never really went away?  I gradually reintroduced refined/high carb food back into my diet.  I guess I'm just in denial.  With the way I've been feeling for the past few years, I should have known...

Now I'm sitting here, trying to come to grips with the fact that if I want to feel human again, I'm going to have to give up my emotional crutch, FOOD!!!  I love to eat...anything..everything!!  I have since I was a child.  Even though I feel like crap, I don't want to let go of the food...

I have been keeping a list of the carbs I am eating.  Sometimes after I eat, I feel really good, and sometimes I don't.  The headache is usually the sign.  Another is that I feel sad and depressed.  Ergo, my blood sugar dropping.  I guess I should feel elated that I finally have an answer and a way to actually feel better, but I haven't gotten there yet.  I'm mad, really, really mad...