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Nitrogen 
This has been the worst 2 weeks. For the past 3 years I've always done one month of working out, lost 10lbs then gain it back. I can never seem to break the cycle. It gets 10X harder for me to lose weight now because it's not excessively excess weight anymore. So I always have to amp it up. My problem is that I think about all the hard exercise I need to do, and I loose that motivation cause I'm tired, stressed, etc, and it just seems like so much work. I know that it will make me feel better, but for some reason I never push past the feelings of hatred toward so much exercise. So my admission is that I fully realize that I've been failing because I am being lazy. I have no real reasons, just excuses.
So I've slowly been falling apart the last week and a half. But I am trying so hard to get back to it. It has become the craziest mind battle I've ever faced. Resisting cravings isn't even this hard.
I know that I need to make my own decisions to push through this and no one is going to hold my hand. But it is so hard to get out of bad habits, I'm so used to standing or sitting in one place. For 4 years I worked administration, and now I'm in university (sitting in classes and sitting while studying for hrs). But I need to learn to break those bad habits and stop being lazy so I can get up and do what needs to be done.
To start, yesterday I went on one of my bike rides with my bf. We actually mapped it on google and found out that the route we take is 20km (12.4miles). I thought we were only going about 16km. So I felt pretty good about that. But wow did I get sooo tired, my body was really hating me for not exercising yet this week.
Work is stressing me out, and I am exhausted today, but I still want to do something, because if I don't, I am allowing myself to give in. I need to break this cycle. I haven't even wanted to go near the scale or the measuring tape because I don't want to know if I've screwed up.
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Hour bike 2xweek for 2wks
Progress 75%
Encouragements: 1
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Thanks to the inspiration of some of you, and with the advice of my boyfriend, and after reading the article suggest by Joyce <http://primusweb.com/fitnesspartner/library/weight/0698metabolism.htm>, haha I've decided to actually follow all of this good advice. I am going to fight back this plateau with a change in my diet plan.
Originally I started eating 1300 calories per day and exercised every few days. Now I need to step it up by doing more workouts, and by adding weight training. This will also require me to increase my calorie intake to 1500 calories a day so that my body won't starve and can properly build back muscle. Increasing my protein intake is a must.
Doing this I realize that I may no see the scale budge for a few weeks; however, my hope is to still see my measurements change as I lose fat and gain muscle. I still have 65 days (over two months) to lose 10lbs, so I think this option best suits me. Also, it will be easier to maintain after my weight loss because of higher muscle mass and a higer metabolism.
Wish me luck!
PS> for those of you who asked to see pictures of my "mini-make over", I've never felt really comfortable putting my face on the internet. There is always a scare to me that I just never know who is looking at it and what they could find out about me. Maybe just paranoia, but either way I'm just not comfortable, sorry. However, I've been take photos of my weight loss about every 30 days and will hopefully be posting those at the end of my weight loss (with my head cropped off of course lol).
Thank you for your support, YOU GUYS ARE THE BOMB!!
UPDATED GOALS
100 Day of Weight Loss
Progress 35%
Encouragements: 3
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Oh I love this journal! I read such enthusiasm here!
Totally understand about the pictures.
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Very inspiring journal entry! I totally understand about the picture thing. Won't catch me posting them either! Stay positive!
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I love your new plan! LOVE IT! I know you are going to shock your body with your new routine and bust through this plateau. Great job reassesing your plan and keeping a positive outlook! I am so happy for you!
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Great job, I like how you decided to tackle the plateau instead of be upset by it!!!
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i am going to check out that site myself can use any advice i can get. we can do it the 100 days will be behind us before we know it peace and hugs sherry
These past 3 days have been not so good. Mostly because I haven't been sleeping well and I just get in bad moods when I'm that tired. Anyway, I am feeling better now and ready to keep going on with my journey. Still have 66 days left. Thank you for everyone who has been so supportive over the last few days. Just wanted to let you know that I haven't given up. I was prepared for this plateau, so it's not gonna stop me.
Also, part of this weight loss for me is so I gain more self-confidence in my apperance. So to help with that I've also decided to do a mini make over. I bought some make up, not anything excess, mostly just concealer to help brighten my face. I have freckles so my face seems dark. And the circles under my eyes have only been getting darker. In pictures I tend to look like the living dead. So I wanted to change that. Secondly, I bought some hair dye. I've dyed my hair auburn before and really liked it, so I decided to do that again.
Hope to talk to you guys again soon.
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sounds so nice take a pic and let us see. so glad your sticking with the program you really help me to keep going. 66 days that doesnt sound to bad does it. we can do it peace and hugs sherry
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Wow a make over is a great idea! I bet you look beautiful either way. your compassionate nature makes you beautiful to all of us here. I personally love the freckled look. what did you buy to cover up the circles. they always seem to be the hardest to hide. glad your accepting the plateau without slidding back to old patterns thats a huge step! Congrats!
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Glad to here you are not even considering giving up! The scale will move again soon! I am is the same boat so hopefully we will bust past the plateau together!
Have fun with the makeover. And yes pictures would great!
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You ought to be proud of yourself for making the changes you think you need. We love you the way you are, but we do understand the changes. Hugs, Pepper
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I don't know you, but its good to see the desire is burning again, my desire is burning here too and 1 thing which helped me was taking melatonin which helps me get much better sleep at night, I was waking up at 3-5 AM and it was seemingly impossible to get back to sleep although I could wait until 10:00 AM or later finally get very tired, although now I am getting much better sleep and so I am not nearly as tired during the day and this helps. One day at a time is best especially for weight loss since I can easily get discouraged when I am not doing this or that, so I try to only focus on today. I am sure I will be able to get smaller clothes when I check out my size in October to December although I am not sure if I have lost much weight. I am sorry this is so long, but remember this, I am proud of your desire and trying harder.
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I am aware of the 'Never seems to work' plateau too since I am doing more with time and I am going to do as much as I can to delay or not have the plateau. I know you will do as much as you can too to prevent this from happening or long delay it since the body is thinking its helping you its not, you have the kick butt attitude I'm sure and this will help, I know you understand I mean this figuratively of course.
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Nitro. How fustrating for you. I'm sorry its been such a roller caoster. You should not have to work that hard to maintain. You can't do that the rest of your life. How many calories are you taking in? Maybe your body thinks its starving cause your working so hard. This time when you lose the 10 just work at keeping it off instead of losing. than when you have reached an equilibrium try to notch it up just a little. Go slow find the right amt to lose just 1 lb a week. Maybe even Talk to a trainer and a nutritionist to get the right balance of calories and exercise!
Tobey008
it's not that the harder workouts aren't working.... I'm not doing them. I know I have to do them, but I think of how hard it would be to do that daily and I lose motivation to do it... so I go be lazy instead. The 1st 10lbs came off with light exercise and cal restriction. The next will come off if i do more weight training and build my muscles.
But good news. I kept to it, as much as I would have rather gone to bed, I went and did some strength workouts. I feel better now (go figure). But today was about finding different moves that I like doing so I can make a routine. I think the ones I did today will make a good one.
Nitrogen
great so glad you did something if you can just always do something. in life with all my ups and downs it seems that my body isnt ment to be below 145 i have been able to get there by doing rediculas stuff that is impossiable to maintain and then the minuit i look at food i start gaining it back and fast, so what im trying to say is do the exercise and eat right but dont put to much on yourself your body may be trying to tell you something peace and hugs just something to think about we can do it
slkmom
I really think maintaining weight is so very much harder than losing weight! It is great if you can exercise every day but I don't beleive it is necessary. 3-4 times of 1 hour each should be enough to maintain your muscle tone and with proper eating. At least that is what most the books/web sites say. I am sure it would be different for everyone and we all have to find our own plan.
Glad you are sticking with it and working through the brain arguements!
JoyceMarilyn
I am so sorry that you are going through a rough patch here... it is very hard to break the cycle of gain/loss/gain, so many of us go through that and understand how hard it is. I just want you to realize that you are stronger and more capable (physically, mentally) than you ever realized and that it WILL get easier with time. It will. I lost and maintained my weight while going to college full time and yes it was hard, but it just solidifed by life change. I had to plan ahead with food (pack a big lunchpail full of food for the day) and exercise. Some days I would go for a short run between classes. I would just wear my running gear and then go for a jog to squeeze it in for the day. Over time, exercise became more fun for me and eventually I started WANTING to do it :) It wasn't overnight though. I had months where I wanted to cry and throw a fit instead of not going to the gyn. I was just so not used to working out and I didn't like it :( But I promise that with time and persistence, it will get more fun. Stay strong and fight back! You hit the wall, but you aren't down forever! You can do it! :)
smileLisa
I can soooooo relate to this post. I too am struggling with my mind over exercising on a daily basis. I never had to do much a few years ago to stay fit, now I have to watch everything I eat AND exercise regularly to stay at a healthy and personally comfortable weight! It makes me feel like throwing in the towel on a daily basis!!!! So, please know others DEFINITELY feel your pain!!!!!
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