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CherylW66 
9:58am, October 13, 2009
Hi there. I just wanted to let you all know that I"m back on here. Taking care of my nephew got to be to much for me. I just felt overwhelmed. I needed more me time I guess. But being back to just voluteering 3 days a week and the other two just doing what I want has made me more relaxed. I came back cause I have just been struggling with anxiety lately and I can get the best support on here. Also missing my mom so much. It will be 4 months since she has been gone on the 16th of this month.
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It seems like the hard times for me are now in the evening before I go to bed and then it carries over to the next morning. Don't know why. I don't like feeling sad like this. It hurts. Just one of those days I feel lost without my mom. I never knew there was this kind of hurt until my mom died. Both sets of my grandparents have passed away and it didn't hit me like this. It seems like every Tuesday it hits me. Maybe that is why I feel this way. Sorry if this letter seems like I'm just rambling. I will get through it ok. I will get busy doing housework and stuff but she is always on my mind. I want a picture of her in the house but not yet as it would hurt to much to look at it. Well I had better end this letter. I'm not feeling depressed just very sad today.
I hope you understand what is going on with me. I just have to take one day at a time cause I never know how I'm going to feel the next day. Is this normal?
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I'm sorry to see that you are feeling so sad today. I think what you are feeling is very normal. Not a day goes by that I don't think of my Mom and she has been gone almost two years. I do have some pictures of my Mom, but couldn't put them up right away, just too sad. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Hugs.
Trisha
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Hi Cheryl--I think what you're going through is normal based on reading everyone's posts and replies on this site. It doesn't make the sadness go away though. I myself am very sad and it's only been 2 1/2 months since my mom died. I have about 10 messages from her saved on my answering machine...don't know when or if I'll ever be able to play them. I am going today for my first appointment with a counselor who specializes in grief and depression. I wish you luck hon. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Bawnie
Hi Cheryl,
It's very normal. The evening is the worst for me too - that is when I used to call mom all the time - while doing the dishes or making dinner. I can't look at her photo yet - it hurts too much but I carry two with me in my bag. I have never hurt this badly in my life - it is horrible, I know what you are going through. Please write to me anytime you need tom
Hugs,
Nancy
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