An Angel Never Dies.
September 4, 2009 9:34am
Don’t let them say I wasn’t born, that something stopped my heart,I felt each tender squeeze you gave, I loved you from the …
SamiLou 
10:28am, October 14, 2009
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About Me
SamiLou
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About Me
I am a survivor. A fighter. I have overcome some of life's hardest challenges, and I am only eighteen years old. I have pushed through addictions, rapes, beatings, a heartless father, a sadistic ex boyfriend, a horrible miscarriage and suicide attempts. However now, I am able to find beauty in anything, and I absolutely love life. I have found someone who accpets me for who I truly am, and I could not ask for more.
I am a survivor. A fighter. I have overcome some of life's hardest challenges, and I am only eighteen years old. I have pushed through addictions, rapes, beatings, a heartless father, a sadistic ex boyfriend, a horrible miscarriage and suicide attempts. However now, I am able to find beauty in anything, and I absolutely love life. I have found someone who accpets me for who I truly am, and I could not ask for more.
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Interests
Driving, Texting, Photography, Boyfriend, Best Friend, Music, Reading, Writing, Anything I Can Get An Adrenaline Rush From. Ha
Driving, Texting, Photography, Boyfriend, Best Friend, Music, Reading, Writing, Anything I Can Get An
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Recent Activity
Recently:
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1 discussion post, 1 hug received, 1 hug given
Friday
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SamiLou wrote a discussion post in the Miscarriage support group: This Time Last Year 2:57pm
I cant help, but think to myself...this time last year, i was going to be a mother...around this time,…
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SamiLou gave babydoll192 a hug 2:07pm
hey, i hope i am able to help. im not always able to talk to other people about similar experiences either,…
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SamiLou and babydoll192 are now friends 2:00pm
October 28
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SamiLou wrote a discussion post in the Miscarriage support group: Resentment? 10:53am
does anyone else feel any type of resentment when they see that someone is pregnant, or even anyone who…
October 21
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SamiLou wrote a discussion post in the Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder support group: Journaling. 12:25am
so the last coouple days, i havent slept. all because of the flashbacks. i learned how to repress the…
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Journal
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Step-Father
August 19, 2009 10:49pm
I view the man my mother married as a completely shallow douche bag. I cannot stand the man. However I do remain polite, only because he is married …
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I Have A Job!
August 17, 2009 9:51pm
I am now an employee of Sports Authority. I was hired on the spot, I was so excited when I walked out of there I called my mom and told her.
While mom …
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Made It Through
August 12, 2009 7:11am
I just wanted to make it through the week without any pills.
I did it.
I could not be happier about that.
My boyfriend helped alot, since he made sure …
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Interview Wednesday
August 4, 2009 5:28am
I have been trying to get another job or the past two months, since my current job stop putting me on the schedule. We are under new management, and …
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Hugbook
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sorry I haven't written lately (it seems like weeks) -- I have got a horrible cold or the flu - doctors gave me something, but it is just going to take time. I will be writing again soon. But Right Now, I only love my bed and pillows.
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Oftentimes in early recovery, it can seem like the bad days just keep coming and coming and coming. But that really isn't the case. What's happening is that you are dealing with memories of childhood abuse, abandonment, and neglect, and you are going through a grieving process as you work your way through it all. In time, as you begin to clear up the wreckage of your past, you days begin to look a little bit brighter. Before you know it, you've had a couple of days in a row that have actually been pretty positive. And then, you hahve a good week, and then a good month. And before you know it, your down days are very, very few and far between. What do you know, you've made it through the hard work of the recovery process, and you're living life in a whole new way. Your life is now filled with Peace, joy, and love. You're experiencing a life that you never dreamed possible, all because you have the strength and courage to face your demons and deal with them. And by doing so, the miracle that is SamiLou emerges from the ashes, like a Phoenix, and takes her rightful place in life as a survivor, a winner. This is what awaits you!! I assure you, if you do the necessary work of recovery, this WILL be your life, your reality. Don't lose faith. Even though it may seem dark now, there is light at the end of the tunnel. So realize that the bad days are necessary to reach the good ones, and continue to move forward until the prize is yours.
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Flower
Hi SamiLou,
I would be delighted, and honored to be your friend. I read your profile and you really are a survivor. But that really doesn't begin to describe you. How about if I call you a miracle? That's what you are you know? As you've been able to overcome everything else, I'm sure you'll be able to overcome this sexual addiction as well. And I feel privileged that you've asked me to walk beside you as you begin to travel your recovery path. I'm looking forward to chatting with you again real soon! 
Ray of Sunshine
good morning, sweetheart :P
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High Five
Sami
did you ever notice. You are only 18 and yet you have the wisdom of a grandma. You are smart and sensitive and have gone through so much you are ageless. -- Great job on being a wonderful person. I am glad you are my friend.
You are A Very Impressive Woman!
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Rape
Basically my entire life I was raped...well for ten years, almost. If not by my father than by an abusive boyfriend(who is now out of the picture)...
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- It would most likely be working if I kept going...but I can't handle it
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Most of the people I try to speak to about my past do not truly understand...
- Running Working / Worked
- I run to release stress or to think so this actually helps quite alot
Close Sexual Abuse
It started when I was four, with my second cousin...two years when it ended, my father began another two years after the fact. That went on till I was eleven years old, and then it just got worse....
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- I use music for everything...
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Not too many people understand the contamination I feel
- \"The Courage To Heal\" Somewhat Helpful
- I absolutely hated using this book...I believe it is still in my room, hidden somewhere...
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
My entire life I have been through abuse. Physical from my father and an ex-boyfriend. Mental from my mother and stepfather. There are days when it becomes too much
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- Music is my world
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- It might be helpful if i actually kept going...
Open Miscarriage
I am only eighteen years old and have experienced a loss so great that it breaks my heart just thinking about it. I lost my little one while I was three months...my angel would have been born this August eleventh.
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- I do this way too much
Open Depression
After all that I have been through, depression was inevitable...
Treatments
- Prozac Considering
- I stopped taking it
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- The family just kinda pushes it too the side....
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Flashbacks. Nightmares. Anxiety. Things I suffer from every single day of my life...
Treatments
Open Teen Sexuality
Not too much to say here...kinda self explanatory
Open Depression - Teen
SamiLou hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Prescription Drug Abuse
I battled this addiction for about three years on and off; once I am able to breakaway something would pull me back into the hole...however at this point(07/2009) I have been clean for two months, I do not want to go back.
Treatments
Open College Stress
I am a Freshman in College this yeat, it is exciting. Lol.
