An Angel Never Dies.
September 4, 2009 9:34am
Don’t let them say I wasn’t born, that something stopped my heart,I felt each tender squeeze you gave, I loved you from the …
SamiLou 
10:28am, October 14, 2009
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About Me
SamiLou
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About Me
I am a survivor. A fighter. I have overcome some of life's hardest challenges, and I am only eighteen years old. I have pushed through addictions, rapes, beatings, a heartless father, a sadistic ex boyfriend, a horrible miscarriage and suicide attempts. However now, I am able to find beauty in anything, and I absolutely love life. I have found someone who accpets me for who I truly am, and I could not ask for more.
I am a survivor. A fighter. I have overcome some of life's hardest challenges, and I am only eighteen years old. I have pushed through addictions, rapes, beatings, a heartless father, a sadistic ex boyfriend, a horrible miscarriage and suicide attempts. However now, I am able to find beauty in anything, and I absolutely love life. I have found someone who accpets me for who I truly am, and I could not ask for more.
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Interests
Driving, Texting, Photography, Boyfriend, Best Friend, Music, Reading, Writing, Anything I Can Get An Adrenaline Rush From. Ha
Driving, Texting, Photography, Boyfriend, Best Friend, Music, Reading, Writing, Anything I Can Get An
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Step-Father
August 19, 2009 10:49pm
I view the man my mother married as a completely shallow douche bag. I cannot stand the man. However I do remain polite, only because he is married …
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I Have A Job!
August 17, 2009 9:51pm
I am now an employee of Sports Authority. I was hired on the spot, I was so excited when I walked out of there I called my mom and told her.
While mom …
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Made It Through
August 12, 2009 7:11am
I just wanted to make it through the week without any pills.
I did it.
I could not be happier about that.
My boyfriend helped alot, since he made sure …
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Interview Wednesday
August 4, 2009 5:28am
I have been trying to get another job or the past two months, since my current job stop putting me on the schedule. We are under new management, and …
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Yes that is the tattoo I mentioned before! I love it too, I'm really happy I got it. I read your discussion post, and you seem like a very strong person. I cannot imagine going through abuse on top of my miscarriage. I pray that you can heal and that you will be very blessed in the future. You deserve some really great things after all you have been through! I'm here if you ever need to talk :)
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I just lost my precious baby a little over 3months ago. I am soo sorry for your loss. There is no words to describe the pain of losing a child. I will be praying for you.
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I just wanted to give you a hug and let you know that I care.
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sorry I haven't written lately (it seems like weeks) -- I have got a horrible cold or the flu - doctors gave me something, but it is just going to take time. I will be writing again soon. But Right Now, I only love my bed and pillows.
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Support Groups
Close Rape
Basically my entire life I was raped...well for ten years, almost. If not by my father than by an abusive boyfriend(who is now out of the picture)...
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- It would most likely be working if I kept going...but I can't handle it
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Most of the people I try to speak to about my past do not truly understand...
- Running Working / Worked
- I run to release stress or to think so this actually helps quite alot
Close Sexual Abuse
It started when I was four, with my second cousin...two years when it ended, my father began another two years after the fact. That went on till I was eleven years old, and then it just got worse....
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- I use music for everything...
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Not too many people understand the contamination I feel
- \"The Courage To Heal\" Somewhat Helpful
- I absolutely hated using this book...I believe it is still in my room, hidden somewhere...
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
My entire life I have been through abuse. Physical from my father and an ex-boyfriend. Mental from my mother and stepfather. There are days when it becomes too much
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- Music is my world
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- It might be helpful if i actually kept going...
Open Miscarriage
I am only eighteen years old and have experienced a loss so great that it breaks my heart just thinking about it. I lost my little one while I was three months...my angel would have been born this August eleventh.
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- I do this way too much
Open Depression
After all that I have been through, depression was inevitable...
Treatments
- Prozac Considering
- I stopped taking it
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- The family just kinda pushes it too the side....
Open Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Flashbacks. Nightmares. Anxiety. Things I suffer from every single day of my life...
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Open Teen Sexuality
Not too much to say here...kinda self explanatory
Open Depression - Teen
SamiLou hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Prescription Drug Abuse
I battled this addiction for about three years on and off; once I am able to breakaway something would pull me back into the hole...however at this point(07/2009) I have been clean for two months, I do not want to go back.
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Open College Stress
I am a Freshman in College this yeat, it is exciting. Lol.
