glad2be's Journal

I am working on the feelings and insecurities that I have about my job and the relationship that I have with my co workers. That's what I'm working on today, anyway. I am a very hard worker and I am sometimes the kind of person who will just stand up for myself, without thought, sometimes. I believe that sometimes when a person is trying to help, I feel like they are trying to take my work away from me. I have had a girl named heather actually take the work away from me. This makes me mad, and I really want to say, back up bitch, you don't know who your messing with. I cant say anything like that at work, because I'll get in trouble. So, I kinda internalize the anger I feel, and keep going. This one paticuler girl, and her friends, are pretty mean, and I don't understand why. I guess I spent too much time trying to be friends with those people, instead of thinking about how I just needed to stay away from them.  That was hard to do, because they work in my deopartment.

 I had a guy who was typically nice to me, start to look in my direction with a pissed off look on his face. And I felt alone, when he did that. I was also very overworked, so basically I'm like....fuck you, walmart....kiss my ass walmart...what the hell are you trying to make me do? work until I die??? The last day I worked, I was so overloaded with work, that I almost passed out. They did that to me, two weekends in a row, and Nobody else in the department stopped to help me. I would look up from what I was doing, and I would see a guy who reqally could of helped, just standing there, watching me work.This kind of thing happens all the time. I'm tired of telling the bosses that nobody helps. They leave.I mean, my department manager has even seen it for herself. Instead of telling them to work, she just took their duties away from them, and gave 'em to me. Yeah, I've had enough of those assholes....they can kiss my ass....fuck 'em all!!! Just venting, but it feels good.