glad2be's Journal

I'm pretty depressed today. I'm just tired of going, and going, and going. I want to take a break for awhile. My hours got cut at work and I'm kinda upset about it. Everbodies hours got cut, and my new schedule works better for me,but I'm tired of trying to prove myself to the bosses. I don't even know if it's neccessary. I'm always worried that i'm gonna get in trouble for something in spite of my efforts. I'm tired of the people that I work with. Sick of being treated rudely. Tired of comments and basic bullshit. I'm really fuckin' sick of it. I just want to cuss and cuss and cuss. i have this one guy at work who kinda started the bullshit, when i got my evaluation. He spread a bunch of rumers that I was boasting about my eval. It got me sent to the managers office. Now this guy is trying to be my friend, and when we are alone, he talks crap about the people I've always seen him be nice to. I have been wanting a friend at work, but not someone who is two faced. I'm on edge all the time. I'm just sick of being on edge. This guy told me that an old lady who works there had reported me to our new department manager. I'm like....FOR WHAT?? Working my ass off???? I'm just sick of it...I want a damn break....but I don't get one for another 4 days....I just want these fuckers to leave me alone, and let me fuckin' work. i like to fuckin' work, and do a good fuckin' job! i think they are just pissed off because they can't handle the work load that I handle. They can't do it,. I make those fuckers look bad....That's tough for them I guess. It's not my fault that they are lazy assholes, who can't follow instructions. I just needed to vent....sorry guys.