AndromanicD's Journal

Alright so I've always tried to do this thing on facebook and myspace where theres a Q on a survey like "who is your perfect partner?" or "what is your perfect partner like?" etc. and I always perfectly explain the girl I like at the time... although my explanation is always true... I mean I'd like her for her personality not JUST looks and its usually the same stuff... but with Jen its I dunno... its different. Usually I'm just like oh someone just like me, someone funny blah blah blah but with Jen theres actually things I like besides that. For instance, she doesn't mind that I'm a huge nerd and love anime. Also she thinks me being in drama is actually cool, she'd want to start a band with me, thinks its funny when I break out into random songs like amigas cheetahs and its tearing up my heart, shes a bit ditzy which its so cute and gah I really don't know shes just awesome. So anyway I was on that social interview jawn and its like What do you look for in a partner? and I'm thinking: fucking win. Because she was online. So I say all the things above plus a few more things and for the first time. ever. like ever ever. she actually commented on the post and was like Omg you just described me!!! XD lmao  I honestly was like fucking finally! I'd so been waiting for  moment like that. Shit if this makes her see that we could actually be a good couple... even if just in a like: haha we'd so be the perfect couple! (which she actually said in a later comment but like if she actually believe it i mean...) I'd flip shit. I'd be SO FUCKING happy. because then maybe JUST maybe we could be together. It always seems like I'm being way to hopeful with this kind of stuff but like shes just perfect! Besides the stuff above she is extremely attractive and shes so nice like... usually I meet these girls and we become friends quick and I think they're nice but they end up being total bitches. Sometimes I already knew it though... I just didn't want to accept it. Like the girl I used to love... I noticed she kind of ruled over her friends like they were her slaves... but I tried to be her best friend (succeeded and since a year ago failed.) and make want to go out with me (fail. at least I think so) then this other girl I only kind of like.... well I really liked... she was like my fucking twin literally.... but I always ignored the fact that it ALWAYS seemed like she was lying to me and ignoring me for no reason. but with Jen... I dunno... I'm really trying to find her flaws and the only one is that I've heard that she can be really late to things sometimes. Like my bffs sleep over the party started at like 4-5 and she didn't come until like 7... but honestly I don't give a shit about that lol and the only other worse thing that could happen is that she feels lazy and doesn't feel like hanging out... which again wouldn't matter to me because at least I'd be her gf and i'd be able to see her another time. or in school. I swear I feel so optimistic right now. and like.... ahh I've been trying to see if she wants me to tutor her because I'm in like... pretty much all honors and I think shes only in a few and I think my grades are quite a bit better than hers (not that I'm dissing her in anyway shes still smart to me, besides if she was any smarter she might be a smart ass and I HATE smart asses. to death.) Ugh. I swear if this is like the other times (I end up falling madly in love... which I think I'm already doing... and then she ends up getting in a relationship and realize theres no way she'll ever love or like me like that at all) I'm going to want to shoot myself. but i'm not going to think like that yet. I just need to focus on getting Jen to consider liking me. 

and holy shit. just saw a christmas carol (slept through half of it... couldn't help it i've been SOO tired lately) and it got me REaddicted to xmas music. and goddamn. josh groban has such an amazing singing voice. i wonder if i could imitate his... (i'm really good at imitation guy singing voices...)