rach92167's Journal

for the most part it was a very good day. I ran 2 miles did yoga, texted my sister, made lasagna, cleaned house even though it took awhile. I didn't get everything on my list done, but I still have time and I'm not worried about it. I know it may not seem like a lazy Saturday, but is.

Spent time on this site to. I like to add to the posts, I feel I can be very honest here with people and myself. I may not communicate it in writing very well, that's always been hard for me, but I know it has helped me so much. I hope I never hurt anyone's feelings, that is never my intention and I may give the wrong advice and to much, but its from the heart.

I spoke to my mom today. Wow she was on her ranting pity party. I just listened, and thought I will never sound like her again in my life and her feelings are not mine and I'm not responsible for them. I was exhausted talking to her, but knowing I know that I was so self-centered and negative, manic, depressed, drinking, blaming, regrets, jealous, for many many years and now I'm getting my life together and understand for every action there is a reaction and that is fine, its what life is about. I like living in for today, not assuming the world is after me. I don't say anymore, I just do. No more exhaustion just new energy for myself and my family.

Day by day, hour by hour minute by minute my life is what  I want to make of it.