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mikes16 
8:37am, October 30, 2009
We are all the pearl within the shell. One day the shell will disappear and shining will be the pearl only.
As I get older, and for me its only 43, the small child in me still drives this vehicle. The being that I know I am is still the one trying to park this body, pick up this body and , aaaand... deal with the storms of emotions that pass through it. Have I improved the body, yes at times. Have I mastered the storms and weather.... ha no way. I may have figured out how to avoid stormy emotions but when they his suddenly I become them. In my wisdom I have learned not to beat myself up anymore for the way i act. That is a big realization.
Its funny I always think that as I get older life will get easier and I will be more peaceful and not have to deal with issues, people and events like when younger. wrong. But my wisdom has shown me that perhaps the illusion of finding peace all the time is just that an illusion. After all, how can a concept a concrete one at that like peace ever be places on an ever changing world. Its like trying to paint water. Its always moving and changing.
There is hope though.. the ever changing can be identified and that mystery which moves can be noticed more in the day.... and when it does.... "that" becomes my foundation.
As I get older, and for me its only 43, the small child in me still drives this vehicle. The being that I know I am is still the one trying to park this body, pick up this body and , aaaand... deal with the storms of emotions that pass through it. Have I improved the body, yes at times. Have I mastered the storms and weather.... ha no way. I may have figured out how to avoid stormy emotions but when they his suddenly I become them. In my wisdom I have learned not to beat myself up anymore for the way i act. That is a big realization.
Its funny I always think that as I get older life will get easier and I will be more peaceful and not have to deal with issues, people and events like when younger. wrong. But my wisdom has shown me that perhaps the illusion of finding peace all the time is just that an illusion. After all, how can a concept a concrete one at that like peace ever be places on an ever changing world. Its like trying to paint water. Its always moving and changing.
There is hope though.. the ever changing can be identified and that mystery which moves can be noticed more in the day.... and when it does.... "that" becomes my foundation.
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Marie
thank you.....
you taught me so much, with what little you had
your mind was not par with the rest
your behavior not the same
your were locked away and ignored
left to die alone
the music played through you in ways
only an attuned listener could know
and echoes today as ripples
i hearyour voice in the rain, feel your presense in the wind
thank you.. thank you....
(marie was my mentally handicapped aunt, that i looked after, her body died a while ago, her spirit lives on in all the work i do.)
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Mike that was beautiful poem you wrote for her memory.
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so full of love and deeply touching
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How wonderful that one's existence .... always gives worth to someone. Prayers & spirit to you.
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Lovely poem Mike...such a sweet tribute.
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So true Mike! :-)
Venus7
This is nice, and that you find awareness. Though, I couldn't thrive in a world of illusion - I embrace in the moments of peace, in what can be shared of all things. I'm glad that your own search can bring you enlightenment.
it2speaks
Enlightenment,peace and the strength to climb the moountains of adversity.affliction and distress is attainable although it is but an intense struggle and the storms that tears one apart is only a stepping stone to build up on the'Rock of Ages' who is responsible for knitting the whole of creation with such perfect wisdom,rythm and accuracy..........
Deeps9
really good Mike - thank you for sharing
KCJ