Jenton's Journal

I made it through the 1st visit with the therapist. Sigh of relief. I was much more impressed with the one from work that referred me to her than the one I am seeing - at least so far. But maybe that's because the first visit they have to get so much preliminary information which is understandable. She thinks I need a support system. She's right but I don't see it happening or at least I don't know how to make it happen. She thinks I might should go to church and could find one there. But sometimes there is just too much stress in going to church. They can put you on such a guilt trip if you don't have money to give all the time. Put you on a guilt trip about every thing you do or don't do. Everybody wants to know where you were everytime you don't show up and maybe you just were too depressed to show up but you don't want to tell them that but then if you make something up then you feel guilt for lying....... so church can just put me under more stress than I want to deal with right now. Unless somebody can tell me of one that does not do people this way. And I think just too many people for me right now too.