AllisonG1227's Journal

Okay so today is the 1st meeting for this womans group and I have been set to go tot this for like 3 weeks. Now suddenly its today and I just cant seem to get myself up for going. Whats holding me back? What about this seems so scary? I cant seem to put any one thing in place. Is it the whole idea of being with these people that I dont know? I have always been outgoing.. always been able to talk to anyone. Why is the thought of this making me cry? Do I not want to let go of my security blanket? Is letting go of my old pain so hard? I want a new life.. I want a new beginning but maybe I just dont want to do the work to get there..... I am I so damn weak that I cant do this alone. God how pathetic am I? Am I just not ready or am I making ridiculous excuses? I just dont know what to do!!!