Journal

Today was another day of trying to keep my head up.  I have my family to keep me going and that makes it...if possible bearable.  I have arrived at acceptance and with my strong faith try to get understanding. I have to have that to make sense of it all.  Some days are easier, and then there are the hard ones.  I still cannot sleep in my bed or my room...one day I will work toward that, it is a goal that I plan to meet, but just not today. I am thankful for this site, because it tells me I am not alone, we all are on this tidal wave we wish we never had to be on. I remember how happy my son was and all the joy he brought us in his short life and it makes me grateful to have had those experiences, although I wish for more...but I know he is in peace.  Thank you to all who are here and I am sorry for to all for why we are here.  I pray for us all every day.