luvevery01's Journal

i really honestly dont know anymore. life seems to be gettin easier. i have a great guy in my life. but my father just wont disappear like i want to. he thinks there's something wrong with me. did he ever stop to think that maybe i just don't like him and want nothing to do with him. he can say all he wants and says he never did the things he did but hello i do know what i went through with that  man. he emotionally abused me for years the way he use to yell because of the dogs. saying how my mom never let him see me. know he never wanted to see me. everytime i was there he never wanted to do anything i wanted too. you know going to see a movie every other weekend then out to eat got kinda boring. i dont wanna see my father and he just cant get through his thick ass skull. what more does he want me to do. he blames me hating him on everyone in my life did he ever stop to think that maybe it's him. maybe i just don't like the person he is. I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH HIM!!!!

what should i do. i wish he would just disappear forever and never come back.

maybe i should not go through my mom's emails anymore so i dont have to hear his bullshit. who really cares what he says.