luvevery01's Journal

i dont even think my own mother loves me anymore. all we do is fight now all because of my father. why does evey time that my life starts to turn good and im finally happy, why does it have to be taken away from me in an instant. my whole world just comes crumbling down more and more as the years go by and i honestly dontt think im ready to deal with this anymore. all i wanna do is not deal with anymore. all i wanna do is just go into non-exsitance. what's the point. not one person in this world will miss me if i die anyway so what really is the point. everything is falling out of place when it was finally in place again. should i take it anymore???

my best friend is mad at me for not hanging out with her everyday. she makes me feel so guilty for wanting to hang out with my other friends, its not my fault that you dont get along with them.

i hate that if she didnt have me she would have no one in this world. no one at all. i hate having someone to depend on me for shit. what do i look like please answer me that? i'm not god for heaven sake. even if god were real. i mean sometimes i honestly dont kno if he's real cause if he was normal then maybe he wouldnt put people through hell so much as he doe snow. maybe its cause god just hates me because i just suck at life so badly lol

all im thinking right now is really what the hell is the point in life anymore if you live in pain and suffering so much???????????????????