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abrescia 
1:45pm, October 20, 2009
Idk, Maybe its been a year sense Ive been diagnosed and I still have no Idea on what to expect. The one person that I love and that was there for me has now started to hate me for everything I have put him thru. and still am. I need to change and just dont know how. Im a nut case and completly hate myself. I dont want to loose the only one who has been there for me. I put him thru hell and now he doesnt want to have anything to do with me, I started to feel better but now i just feel miserable and completly lost. I no longer have my bestfriend and my boyfriend who I thought I would be spending the rest of my life with hates me. I constantly think he is cheating on me and I am paranoid I dont know how to fix that part of me because he has never done anything to make me think that. Im so self conciouse I hate my life and it is falling a part I just dont know what to do.
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write him a letter and try to explain to him your feelings. I think you have to try to explain to him that you are having irrational thought and you are trying to work on them. He needs to know this, and in a letter I think would be the best way to lay things out.
rennikc