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Madonna10 
8:14pm, August 25, 2009
So there have been so many things in my life lately that I feel as if I am spinning or in a nightmare. January began with a death in the family, then February began with my husband's leg surgery, followed by me getting laid off from work, followed by my husband getting blood clots in both lungs, landing him in hospital for a week. As if that wasn't enough, now it looks like we are separating. Obviously there is way more to the story than this, but this just about sums it up.
It looks like I will never have the opportunity to be a mom and at this point, I will never marry again. I admit that I have not been happy in my marriage for over 3 years now, but was and still am willing to work my ass off to fix me and the marriage. It is so painful to accept that he does not want to and that he seems to be happier now that he has decided to leave me. I know that I will survive this, and that I will begin to learn to enjoy my life and be happy once again, it's just this painful stage right now that makes life seem so bleak.
~ Sad & Lonely Cat
