Journal

This is bad.  I should be grateful for my job - particularly cos of where i work.  Colleagues losing jobs all over the place in their thousands so far this year.  If they are not losing them they are under threat through restructures.  We've just survived a restructure but who knows next month, next year.  I keep going to talks about embracing the change and filling my boots with the experience so to speak.  I hear the words, understand them but dont feel them.  Maybe cos im older and seen it all before.  I need to work harder to understand what I want and get out there !!!!!!!!!