galiger's Journal

I apologize to my friends here.  I've been neglecting DS for a couple of weeks now.  I've been working on a new cross-stitch.  It's been relaxing.  My pain level has been surprisingly managable, despite stress at work increasing.  Oddly enough, I've also been slowly distancing myself from my family.  It's been over two months since I visited.  I was relieved when I found out I was working on Thanksgiving so I could reasonably decline dinner with them.  I'm throughly enjoying my little bubble of a world with my wonderful boyfriend and pesky cat. 

So for the moment, I'm delitfuling ignoring the exsistance of my Fibromyalgia. Not that I can really go out and do eveyrthing.  I still rest often and have become a how new level of homebody.  But I'm content, and surprizingly okay with staying home.  I usually get very upset if I don't go out for something (anything besides work and errands) once a week.

It may be because the new hobby, but also the sudden chill of winter.  Either way, I may be more a hermit for a while longer.  

Truthfully, the main reason I've been avoiding this place is that I was beginning to obsess with the pain and the problems and getting frustrated with it all.   I realize I still need to come to terms with my diagnosis.  I'm still grieving, and that can be a very private process. I'm still too raw to share my thoughts here. And I just don't have a lot of free time working night shift full time.  I don't want to spend it here comiserating. 

I am truely sorry to the friends I have made, and I don't mean to abandon you. It's just something I need to do for myself.  It's a selfish move, I know. But with this disease, you have to be a little selfish, adn take the time and things you need to create the best outcome for yourself.  

Maybe I'll be back in time.  Gentle hugs and wishes of painless days for everyone!