missmanic's Journal

this is the first time I have ever gone to the hospital for something phycological. I was decomping from lex and I was rapid cycling becuz of the lex aka my shrink is a boob and im going to find a new one...gotdamn klonopin is a stabilizer my ass. I hate him. I feel comforted knowing my fiance will help me through all this. I have never had this kind of support before not even from him. he says im
not going to tell u I know what ur going through cuz I have no clue...but im on ur side. we had this h2h b4 I went to the er they would have checked me in but when they called him he said. He wanted to help me through this and I should come home. he promised them that if I got worse he would call in a heart beat and have me "carted off in the paddy wagon". We ended up at his parents cause its peaceful there. I and the doc decided not to go back on lex 2 stay on the lamictal for the siezures but to come to the clinic often so a new shrink/therapist can tell me what I really need. sigh , the insolmnia is still here but I feel real hope