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amy369 
10:18pm, August 23, 2009
I'm not sure what to name these journals, but I know I'm supposed to keep a journal. I guess I could keep some journals on here, too, right?
As some know, I have Anxiety Attacks/Depression. I'm having a hard time dealing with this because this is my first time having to deal with something like that. If you've taken a look at my Support Groups, I've dealt with all this other stuff my whole life. This is something new, and something scary. I don't like feeling like I'm dying. Maybe writing something down here daily will help. Or maybe talking to some of you guys that are dealing with this and that have been dealing with this longer will help. My typing is all screwed up and I don't make sense anymore. I don't feel like Amy anymore. I'm afraid to fall asleep because I'm afraid I won't wake up. No one knows this. No one outside of this computer or outside of this web site knows this. I'm terrified and I need help.
That's all I'm going to say for now. I'm looking forward to talking to you more people on here. I love making new friends. It makes me happy.
Much Love
-Amy ♥
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Awwww, I'm sorry to read what you're going through, Amy. I've been there in the past and I still often feel isolated though I have made friends here snd on other sites. I'm sure you will make some good friends here who will support you.
I wouldn't worry too much if you're not sure what to write about in your journals. I've only been on here a week myself and don't feel ready to write anything yet. I've also joined a lot of support groups here as I suffer from a number of things. I haven't been able to right much in them either but I know I can read what likeminded people are saying and maybe get noticed.
Anyway, Amy, I wish you the best of luck in dealing with your anxiety. I realise how scary it must be if you've not really experienced the attacks before. But the way in which you're feeling is quite common and, though the anxiety feels horrible now, you will eventually feel better able to deal with it. You can write to me anytime if it helps. :)
steve1974
I'm sorry. :( If I could, I'd make it all go away. I'd make you feel like Amy again and make you unafraid of going to sleep. I know what it's like. Hang in there.
Buradi
Hey Girl - thanks for adding me as a friend. I find myself in these 'tunnels' a lot. I'm going out for a bit tonight but hope to write to you later. I've done a lot of things that have helped me (without medicine) that I'd love to share with you if you're interested.
MissNattyBoh