sheira's Journal

My husband and I do nothing but fight lately.  The stresses in our life are getting to us both way to badly.  The biggest thing for my frustration lately is that he WILL NOT wake up with the baby.  I work monday - friday while he is on "parental leave".  I even take the kids to the sitters on monday and friday to give him time to do the stuff he wants to get done around the house.  My baby was sick for the last week and a half, awake every hour at least throughout the night.....I had to wake up with him EVERY TIME!!!!  Then my husband complains to me in the mornings that he got no sleep the night before.  Yet he doesn't know that the baby was up so much.  If you didn't get any sleep then how the hell did you sleep through a sick baby freaking out in the middle of the night over and over again????? 

I asked him last night if I could sleep in this morning.  He was all sweet and said "of course babe".  After waking up twice with the baby @ 1am and 5am, the kids wake up at 6:30am.  He wakes up and tells me "uuggh! I didn't sleep at all last night, I kept having shitty dreams"...then rolls over and goes back to sleep.  So much for letting me sleep in.

I am so worn out I am sick all the time with either a cold or flu, I don't know the last time I felt "healthy".  But he just doesn't seem to care at all!

My other beef is with him and his son.  His son doesn't want to live with us at all.  He even tried pulling the social services move, and told the workers that he was being abused in our home.  Now we are in a custody battle with his crack head mother...and all I can think of is "is it worth it?"  I need answers