fearmom37's Journal

     Will I ever be good enough. They will always look at me as just being crazy and irrational.  Why do they have such power over me.  What do I care what they think of me anyway....why does their approval mean so much to me anyway.  I feel as though I am nothing....nothing will ever make them proud....it will always be something else...your poor brother blah blah blah...when can we talk about me...when am I going to be important.  My accomplishments mean nothing.  Don't they know how hard I struggle, don't they know how much I obsess.  I feel like a child screaming "look at me!!" am I not worth your attention too....don't I matter.  If I'm doing good they don't care....if I'm doing bad, they say they told me so.